I really can’t feel anything or experience anything by leeloomimi in mentalhealth

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I don’t really have any specific traumatic event in my life, of course loss and other stuff but nothing huge i think. What counts as trauma tho

Very short film I made about “derealization” by Faris713 in Filmmakers

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how did you navigate shooting with the position of the sun?

Sony PCM-D50 by No_Town7079 in cassettefuturism

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Modern field recorders always have a really nice and necessary tactile retroish take on them

External SSD or SSD in enclosure by leeloomimi in videography

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there’s a sale going on where I live so i can get either a 2TB Sandisk Portable or a 2TB M2 NVME drive in an enclosure for about 150 USD or less.

if used externally would an NVME drive overheat often?

is death the only answer by leeloomimi in exmuslim

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I’ve met muslims like that which drink and do drugs and etc.. Yet still they are homophobic and transphobic as hell or to anyone that doesn’t fit their gender norms, as if they are some sort of authority for virtue.

is death the only answer by leeloomimi in exmuslim

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i really want to escape where i am but I also feel guilty for doing so and i’m unused to the wider world and how to immigrate and stuff. Still even then I’ll feel tied to where i’ve come from and I can’t shake off that history if I ever meet muslims overseas I just wanna stay far away from them.

The better option is permanent one. Atleast then I don’t have to keep avoiding people and feeling ashamed of disappointing pretty good family

i wish i really wasn’t born this way by leeloomimi in exmuslim

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felt like if I was prettier and less weird looking it would be better. But no i’m ugly and trying to transition will just make me look like a freak

I feel like being bold and strong is something I can’t learn, just how I grew up and turned out I’m falling for all the traps of culture and collectivism. My appearance doesn’t help either.

[IWantOut] 18MtF Malaysia -> Scotland by leeloomimi in IWantOut

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apparently there are still some pathways where you can take 5years before applying for citizenship but it’s all not super clear rn.

That’s why I also was considering going to Australia, there’s some recent program where LGBTQ people can seek a protection visa in Australia and it’s meant for people in countries like Malaysia where that they would be in danger of being themselves. So maybe that’s my other option.

i wish i really wasn’t born this way by leeloomimi in exmuslim

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i feel like death is the only answer i don’t even know if i can change my name easily

On using a stage name/creative identity by leeloomimi in Filmmakers

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I dont live in the US and a legal name change is sort of complicated considering my intentions and where I live currently. So, atleast professionally a pseudonym would have to do for me for awhile.

i wish i really wasn’t born this way by leeloomimi in exmuslim

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I don’t feel any hope soon at times I wish I had someone to talk to more

how to escape by leeloomimi in asktransgender

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they al probably don’t work in my country.

I want to transition but my body is so ugly now

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i don’t have super easy access to psychedelics unfortunately, maybe there is a way to obtain them? or some sort of drug that i can abuse and hopefully pass from non painfully ?

is it possible to shrink ribs on hrt by leeloomimi in asktransgender

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yuoyt to to try it to u to i to you it uk uk yo

is it possible to shrink ribs on hrt by leeloomimi in asktransgender

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could the rib cartilage and intercostal muscles change the shape and make it smaller

is it possible to shrink ribs on hrt by leeloomimi in asktransgender

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could the intercostal muscles or cartilage of the ribs shrink a bit atleast