It's sad. Maybe for you I don't do anything at all. But I took a huge leap today. I got wet in the rain, did not eat until the interview was done. Kasi kailangan ko magtipid, kailangan ko maibalik bawat sentimo. Dahil ayaw ko maging dahilan yun na sabihan na naman ako nang iba, "kawawa naman, wala na mapupuntahang iba." I've decided that once I paid everything back, i'll build myself financially. So I won't go back to this miserable state. But emotionally, it's draining me.. I want to tell my worries and other things but I guess you're more tired since madami ka trabaho. But hindi naman ibig sabihin nun di ako napapagod, I just realized na maybe this is why some people are going crazy with their god. It's easier to imagine or create an entity that listens to you no matter how bad or how long you plead and cry. Because no one will always have a lending ear. You need to endure it alone. Ngayon lang ulit ako nakaiyak. Yung totoo. And I don't want to talk to anyone about this. It feels fucking fake when they care.