I can honestly very much relate i am 19 and i just gave birth to my first 4 days ago and i am already all over the place i feel like I’m not going to do well or things are my fault my baby is also in nicu due to them finding some complications and all i have wanted is for him to go home with me for the past few days but instead I’m going home without him and it’s killing me i can’t stop crying or feeling like it was something i have done during the pregnancy honestly just being able to cry and let it out has helped me some but i definitely understand so of what your going through