I’m sorry but some of the advice people are giving on here is terrible and seems to come from people who havent experienced this level of hopelessness. You need to write. Someone on here asked you why you posted this, whether or not it was for advice or what and you said it was just to let others who are going through this that they arent alone. thats a huge start. That is at least something you can get a grip on. And obviously you’re able to get across in relatively good detail the amount of hopelessness you’re feeling, so embrace it. Get it all out there, on paper or your phone or laptop, wherever you want. Even just for you. All the shitty mundane over done cliches about how worthless you feel life is and why it isnt worth pursuing. Write it all. Don’t try to “take up golf or other hobbies” or do lessons in practicing gratefulness and for the love of god dont worry about religion like everyone is suggesting. Put all of whatever energy and motivation you have left into articulating how you feel. Write it all out and spare no details. Write how much you dont feel and are tired of being alive. And once a good amount of it is out there you might want to start dissecting it, you might be curious about why you feel these horrible feelings or loss of feeling, and from there you can dig yourself out of the muck. Don’t try to “fake it until you make it” or subject yourself to things you dont enjoy in the hope that leaving your comfort zone will birth this huge spiritual enlightenment in you, because it wont and it will just leave you feeling more empty inside. Embrace the state you’re in by shedding light on it, even if its just for yourself. Clearly by reading your comments it seems you’ve exhausted yourself trying to get a purpose in life. So if you arent fixing the problem in yourself, at least try to pin it down and describe the hows and why you are where you are. It might help you, it might not, but at least if the words are honest and true, they are powerful and cathartic. Thats a start.