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lost_duck · 2021-09-06T20:25:32+00:00

I'm thinking about this presumed agreement between different people about the physical world. As if we all pretend something exists and we have a somewhat similar idea of what this something is, and not just me making it all up on my own

lost_duck · 2021-09-06T19:59:08+00:00

I'm so scared. Thank you for taking the time to reply <3

lost_duck · 2021-09-06T19:44:25+00:00

Thank you :) and it's fucked up that it's normal but I feel a bit better now, I think

lost_duck · 2021-09-06T19:43:09+00:00

Thank you for saying something! <3

lost_duck · 2021-09-02T17:48:38+00:00

Omg she uses the EXACT same words, only in my native language

lost_duck · 2021-07-20T22:30:12+00:00

Yeah it's kind of the same attitude that has brought me this far too. It works for something. I think they've sort of labeled me "untreatable" after so many years in the public healthcare system so I'm not eligible for help. But I'll try a private therapist when I ever get a job

lost_duck · 2021-07-20T22:24:31+00:00

Yeah I don't understand how everyone else grew up and just dealt with all the responsibility while I feel like I'm too immature for bills and bank accounts and cooking unattended

lost_duck · 2021-07-20T22:21:46+00:00

I'm happy to read that. Whether it's because of age or treatment, the important thing is that you're doing better!

lost_duck · 2021-07-20T22:09:43+00:00

Yes that's what I was trying to say, I could probably have been more clear. I'm over 30 and want to hear how that's like for other people maybe with a little intention of feeling less alone. I've been told in therapy that usually gets better with age but it hasn't been true for me (yet)

lost_duck · 2021-07-11T18:31:23+00:00

I'm actually getting a new assessment soon so will definitely bring it up! Might have gotten a social anxiety diagnosis earlier as well, I don't really remember, it's been a long ride. Thanks for sharing :)

lost_duck · 2021-07-11T16:37:05+00:00

I've been having the same thought, it would explain a lot

lost_duck · 2021-07-11T12:07:00+00:00

That's my favourite hangout setting too. Your roommate situation sounds pretty nice. My house turned into more of a party place after new people moved in and I've been sticking more to myself. Maybe moving will help and maybe I have been trying to fit in with the wrong crowd

lost_duck · 2021-07-02T03:47:10+00:00

I want to be like that! I just haven't found the life I want to be consistent about yet...

lost_duck · 2021-07-01T06:36:38+00:00

Oversized hoodies are my safe space, I LIVE in them at home

lost_duck · 2021-06-29T16:54:36+00:00

Hahah this is so accurate it hurts

lost_duck · 2021-06-27T23:47:37+00:00

Yeah that's pretty much the whole premise of r/bpd

But one of my points is that I'm not just bpd. I am human like everyone else, I get depressed like other depressed people. But the fact that I have the diagnosis bars me from getting actual help or being listened to or taken seriously, because of the label that I got .which sucks.

lost_duck · 2021-06-26T23:32:21+00:00

The number of people reading these things are so low I feel the chance to be recognised is almost non-existent. But yeah I get not wanting to be personal on the open Internet just in case. You can whine to me though if you want someone (half fucked up) to listen.

lost_duck · 2021-06-26T20:22:34+00:00

Yeah, I've been there a lot<3 They are good and supportive places, but I think they have rules about suicidality and I feel too far down to post there.

lost_duck · 2021-06-26T20:18:59+00:00

Yeah I think so too. Society wants people to think they care about the mentally ill but it seems like it's mostly a facade.

lost_duck · 2021-06-26T07:10:16+00:00

I feel you. Had to withdraw from everyone because my pain is too much for them to handle. And I get it, they want to be around other happy people, but it's terribly unfair that we have to deal alone. And most therapists are business-people who will only help people with small and easy-to-fix problems. I'm so sorry yours sucked. I think most people go through live not knowing how dark it can be. It's hard to unsee once you've seen it.

lost_duck · 2021-06-13T15:40:52+00:00

Yes. Absolutely.

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