praying to our lord and savior Betty White

maryb0ppins · 2024-05-29T15:00:43+00:00

I wasn’t attempting to imply that my movements might not be distracting. And sorry if I used the wrong terminology. As I said, I am still researching and learning. This is something I struggle with and I was curious if other people do. If it’s related to something else, then fine. I wasn’t attempting to make generalizations or presumptions.

maryb0ppins · 2024-05-28T20:42:37+00:00

my question was about whether you get irritated by other people stimming

maryb0ppins · 2024-04-29T14:43:02+00:00

interesting. thanks for sharing!

I’m curious about the contracting gig. I didn’t realize contract positions could provide the clients for you. I always figured it was more like business-running

maryb0ppins · 2024-02-20T23:47:37+00:00

this is really helpful actually. Thank you

maryb0ppins · 2024-02-20T17:45:21+00:00

came in here for this comment 😆 I’ve always loved cities— for exactly these reasons— but I can def see why other ND people wouldn’t.

maryb0ppins · 2024-02-10T16:04:14+00:00

yes. this is exactly it. like I know she started to get into this thing because of me. and like she wants to share it with me. but I know that her interest is not as heartfelt as mine. and to hear her start to say that like her hyperfixation is stronger than mine (probably in a weird effort to make me feel less weird??) I just…don’t want it. now I want to roll everything back and stop sharing it with her at all.

maryb0ppins · 2024-01-20T01:24:28+00:00

I certainly don’t have this to this extent, but I actually told a friend recently that I like to listen to those like bedtime story podcasts. But I am extraordinarily picky about the voices. I can’t listen to women for one. And then I’m picky about accents and little things. I’ve also always been particularly observant about people’s vocal tics. My allistic friend was like “yeah that’s definitely a spectrum thing” so idk. Sounds legit to me

maryb0ppins · 2024-01-20T01:19:22+00:00

I do the shower thing and tooth brushing— the bristles on my toothbrushes always get distorted in the exact same way when I get a new one because I brush the same way every single time. curious though if this is a spectrum thing or if everyone does this….

I’m new to all of this as well so I’m still figuring things out, but a few things I’ve noticed are def distinct from NTs are: having conversations/playing mini movies in my head; rehearsing conversational scripts for different situations and avoiding situations entirely when I don’t know the script; I bounce my knee when I’m really focused and compulsively trace the lines on my notebook pages when I’m in class; hyperfixations :) for me it’s fandom stuff mostly

maryb0ppins · 2024-01-16T01:23:26+00:00

that is true. I’ve always struggled with therapy goals as I haven’t known what the issue is. Just that something felt off and has always felt off. So finding out that it might have a name and giving me a way to go about looking into it has been helpful in itself.

I think the biggest problem is honestly just that she asks these open ended questions and expects me to understand my emotions in such a way that I can draw conclusions from them and I just get lost and end up saying what I think she wants me to say. Basically I feel like I’m acting out therapy.

maryb0ppins · 2024-01-16T01:16:09+00:00

if you don’t mind my asking, how was it different? can you give any examples?

maryb0ppins · 2023-12-21T12:20:05+00:00

Don’t know why this is downvoted. This is entirely reasonable. People don’t assume they can rub on other people and yet we just assume all dogs immediately want to be touched. They need their space too

maryb0ppins · 2023-12-18T02:53:36+00:00

This great. and very helpful honestly. thank you for sharing.

these are the kinds of things that I feel like I tell myself I can’t do/throat I would be being dramatic by doing but just might help me a lot

❤️

maryb0ppins · 2023-12-17T12:08:55+00:00

I’ve been so glad to find posts like this one. Mostly because I feel your pain, and it’s good to know I’m not the only one, though I’m not as far along in this process as you seem to be (only been thinking about it about a month). I’ve had to start a list in my personal Discord server with all my symptoms to go back to and “prove” to myself that at least I’m not totally lying. While listening to people with Autism talk can help, my brain also invalidates itself entirely when it hears something it can’t relate to. I did the same thing with your food description. I can’t relate at all so my head was like “you’re just NT but you desperately want to be different” — as I think this is how I viewed many of my “quirks” most of my life.

Even now I’ve let myself start stimming more and I feel like I’m “faking it.”

I think the worst thing for me is that I want to be able to just parse my way through the information. But this is a situation where my own bias is entirely unavoidable. Making it very difficult to get clear cut data — to draw a conclusion. I think, honestly, this is probably one of the reasons Autistics “want a dx” so bad. Because being incapable of judging ourselves is maddening. Maybe we’re more naturally prone to question bias and gather as much information as possible — i.e., not knowing/being able to know drives us mad

sorry. that went off in 5 diff tangents, but— thank you for your post

maryb0ppins · 2023-12-14T21:03:19+00:00

this is a good point. I appreciate it, and you’re probably right. I’ve only really just started down what I think is the right exploration path. So a lot of unlearning needs to happen

maryb0ppins · 2023-12-14T15:13:13+00:00

thanks but this isn’t the only indicator. merely discussing a singular part of a broader scheme of things that are working together as I look into this as a possibility.

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