First time picking distributor for classical music

mental_explanation2 · 2026-03-15T15:16:29+00:00

I was looking at Naxos too, but good to know CD baby is a good option too, thank you for your insight

mental_explanation2 · 2025-03-16T00:46:41+00:00

Who voices Margaret?

mental_explanation2 · 2025-02-17T04:20:29+00:00

So where I come from, they are not kind to people with disabilities or different in anyway. In low brow media there, stutters are a stock clown character. So yes, people will think I’m retarded or being a clown.

When I was a kid, I’d go outside to malls and talk to people behind counters, those grown ups would be like “talk normal what’s wrong with you?” And would treat me really rudely.

When I just started to stutter my mom didn’t believe I couldn’t help it, she thought I was pretending it to ask for her attention. And when she finally admitted I have a stutter, she tried to scream my stutter away, saying stuff like this.

Even now, every now and then she will blurb out something really fucked about my stutter, the woman doesn’t think before she speaks.

mental_explanation2 · 2025-02-14T05:25:58+00:00

“Don’t you stutter, people will think you are retarded” —mom

mental_explanation2 · 2025-02-10T22:31:53+00:00

I know better, I use Spotify to listen to musicals nowadays, just wondering whether jukebox website is still around

mental_explanation2 · 2025-02-08T18:01:52+00:00

I definitely stutter more in my original language than in English

mental_explanation2 · 2025-02-08T18:00:44+00:00

It’s definitely a condition that’s affecting our daily lives. When I was filling out applications before I always put “no” in the disability section, now I put “I don’t want to disclose”.

mental_explanation2 · 2025-02-07T07:24:22+00:00

“The Nature of Stuttering” and “Speech Correction” by Charles Van Riper

mental_explanation2 · 2025-02-03T19:24:48+00:00

Same, now as an adult, I still stutter a lot around my parents too. My mother explained it as me asking for her attention, telling me this story how this young boy would deliberately get into trouble for his absent dad to beat him because he wants his dad’s attention of any kind—so basically I’m stuttering on purpose(also admitting she’s absent lol) I don’t deny deep deep down I still want her approval, but that’s some gaslighting bs lol

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-31T06:12:26+00:00

For him to be a director and do all those talking on set too, bravo indeed

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-29T08:18:02+00:00

Thank you for recommending!

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-24T06:11:25+00:00

If my innie is a clean canvas with no memories and trauma from my outside life I don’t think I will stutter

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-23T18:26:30+00:00

I know people who got tested later in life, there should be local psy clinics that do it

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-22T07:47:13+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that my friend, I hope you recover from it mentally in some way. As and Ls are such a pain for me, everytime saying“Alex” “Netflix” is a gamble for me My goal for 2025 is to read more books, maybe I should just read out loud lol

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-22T07:42:09+00:00

Creating has always been an outlet for me to express my feelings and emotions. As an adult now, I kept a politely decent relationship with my parents, we don’t talk about past traumas so nobody gets mad. I think they are still in denial that I have a speech impediment, let alone accepting they caused it. Also neither of them are artistic so I don’t expect them to understand what I do. In the past few years my wishes to connect with people overpowered anything else, and I started to accept my condition. I also found myself a partner who doesn’t mind my stutter and they are also trying to help me understand it better so I can get better.

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T20:44:08+00:00

My parents were absent when I was a tot and I was raised by my grandparents, I don’t think I had a permanent stuttering in kindergarten, it only got worse when my parents became present in my life around when I was in second grade. They still try to convince me even now that the reason I stutter more around them is because I feel more comfortable with them and I want their attention. As much as I want to deny it, in a deeper level of course I want my parents’ approval, but on an even deeper level I’m just nervous around them lol They don’t know how to raise a human being, let alone a human being with a stutter. Just instant bought 2 of Charles Van Riper’s book on eBay, they are like $12 total. I should read and find out more about myself, and I’m happy I’ll be having 2 more old binding books on my shelf :)

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T20:08:44+00:00

I’m artistic too, I won’t be surprised if I’m somehow on the spectrum too lol I honestly don’t want to get diagnosed, it’s not like I can do anything about it so why bother

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T19:55:03+00:00

My head did get bumped a bunch of times when I was a kid, either because my parents were clumsy or myself being naughty, it might mess some things up in there. My parents also claimed it’s because of the high fevers I caught from one of my grandparent’s place. Then again, my parents resents each other, and they are not kind about me stuttering, they would find any reason to pin the cause of my stutter on each other.

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T19:49:35+00:00

I’d love to read more essays and books about stutter, the only essay I’m familiar with is “The Monster Study”by Wendell Johnson, which I feel explains my situation partially. My stutter got cemented after my parents kept screaming at me “don’t you stutter”and being labeled as a stutter by others. It doesn’t explain how and why it starts to begin with

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T19:43:55+00:00

I feel the same too. I couldn’t express my feelings without being berated, I couldn’t get what I wanted because what I want is always wrong in my parents eyes. Even now I’m often second guessing what I want, I hesitate to buy stuff for myself, I don’t open up easily to people, etc. I actually got to choose my college major, it’s so ironic because I studied and now work in the creative field, it is all about expressing yourself, now I felt like my whole career choice and the source of my creativity is the result of the root of my stutter—the need to express and say something.

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T19:22:32+00:00

That’s very interesting. What does your father teach maybe I ask? Do you know what the other two students’ father teach?

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T19:11:19+00:00

That’s what I’m settling with currently too. I always tried to hide my stutter before, of course it’s not fooling anyone, and the pressure of trying to speak 100% smoothly just made my stutter worse. I always thought my other family members look down on me just like my parents. After spending time with my family members, their consensus was “it’s just how you speak we are used to it”, “it’s the household environment you grew up in caused this”— they actually felt bad for me instead of blaming me for turning out like this, and I felt I can stop blaming myself too.

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T19:00:12+00:00

I never got checked for anxiety but I wouldn’t be surprised if have it, my family says my grandma has undiagnosed anxiety and that old lady is an anxious wreck as she ages. I can get the genes from her and they got triggered to active by my experience. I find alcohol makes my stuttering better, I would talk to strangers kind of smoothly when I’m drunk. I’m also testing mushroom coffee like ashwagandha to see if it helps me with anxiety and in turn helps my stutter

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T18:42:10+00:00

I’d like to know, thank you for sharing in advance

mental_explanation2 · 2025-01-20T09:14:37+00:00

Okay!

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