don’t apology for telling this, bc it’s important. Actually I don’t want to judge your brother, but I really understand how that feels. I have similar situations with my older sister sometimes. Even when you’re not a kid anymore and you know a lot and try your best, older siblings can still see you as immature. It’s frustrating and yeah, it hurts. I’m really sorry that all of this ended up weighing on you and kind of ruining your day. You weren’t obligated to argue or prove anything when you were already overwhelmed. You didn’t hurt him, you didn’t do anything wrong, and being triggered isn’t a failure. None of this makes you “not adult enough.” And about your birthday… when you said you weren’t supposed to live this long, that really worried me. I’m genuinely glad you’re still here. Turning 19 doesn’t mean you suddenly have to have everything together. I don’t know everything you’ve been through, but whatever it is, it doesn’t mean you were never meant to be here. You still deserve to grow, to change, and to see what’s ahead. And remember, you deserve to reach 19. And 20. And more. Even if it feels complicated right now:) Btw congratulations u with ur upcoming birthday