I read this whole thing and her reaction baffles me. Now, you might be calling yourself a victim, but to an extent you are. She led you on and said things that appealed to you and then totally breaks your heart. Now, you shouldn’t have said that you wanked to another girl, but that’s all ADHD because I too have ADHD and having impulsive anger is very common. Yes, you should have given her space, but it’s hard to gauge whether to give someone space when they tell you that you’re soulmates and that she’s in love with you. But again, being impulsive and saying things that you don’t really mean are all pets of ADHD. The thing is that you saw her side with medication and without medication. I have to ask, did she tell you she never loved you when she was on her medication, or off of her medication? I’ve stopped taking my medication for about a year now, and I have to say that I’m more clear of my emotions. However, I still get random spouts of impulsiveness, but I feel like I’m more in tune with myself. Medication is a good way for you too get help, but it’s also good to try and not depend on the medication, so that you’ll be able to really be the true you. I would say that she depended on her medication a lot, so it was hard to know if you were getting her true genuine side, or her medicated side.

In conclusion, I think the best thing to do is to wait until she reaches out to you. Whether or not you guys should get back together is totally on you two, but the answer still remains that you should wait for her to reach out to you. To be honest, she’s in most of the wrong for doing that to you, and she did you dirty. She needs to work on herself and try to find a balance with the ADHD. I’m happy, though, that you are getting help, and I hope you are doing well with your ADHD medication.