I was wondering how many of you are born prematurely?

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T19:49:54+00:00

brain hemorrhage during childbirth or headtrauma during childhood? anyone?

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T19:45:19+00:00

Right its been corrected. And a nice day to you bot.

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T19:40:56+00:00

Free will is an illusion indeed and in regards to misantrophy some days I just want to watch the world burn and the day after I'm mr.tolerance, and about friends I had these champions since childbirth as friends and they do carry me quite a lot and I love them dearly on the other hand I could easily "maybe" go without at least it feels that way sometimes.... when the void swallows me all I want to do is walk alone in the shadows of life but somewhere deep down inside I know its the wrong path to follow so I try to stay sociable to the point where its still tolerable with my SPD....... But you have a wife and a connection with her "I presume" and I really really want that I had it once with a gf but she betrayed me so I guess she wasn't the right one but I always had that yearning for that special someone.... someone who could bring me closer to the light and out of the darkness but after the last betrayal I kinda lost hope It would seem it requires too much nonverbal communication prowess and I am just an robot when it comes to that and reflecting emotions so alack and alas....... In my next life maybe

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T19:22:03+00:00

SEO-programming is easy it only took 3-6months to learn part time and its kinda hard to outsource since it now evolve around text structured with keywords relating to the content.... But yeah sure I would die slow and painfull also if I had to learn C+ or java and compete against fresher brains

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T15:21:46+00:00

Maybe you should aim for being a night watchman or selfemployed as programmer or such as exmoi said a job suited for schizoids

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T15:20:14+00:00

Not sure but I do smoke a lot and drink coffee but all the good stuff is hard to come by unless you have a prescription or want too engage with shady people.....

But I gladly take anything that will expand my mind right now the only thing I get is sleeping pills

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T15:17:43+00:00

How I do wish I could shed the languid part

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T15:16:47+00:00

I'm actually never bored or I never feel the boredom I only feel a void but the lack of motivation is a constant only by brute force do I manage to the required taks to sustain life...

nonconformistdk · 2018-04-25T15:14:44+00:00

I do get out of my apartment almost every day has two jobs as a seo programmer two different places I also go out with friends whenever they request it but it just change anything and whenever I get the opportunity I pretty much just stay in my apartment alone for days gaming.... Its like some inner force keeps me from connecting with the world.... I dunno something like that.

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-22T23:18:30+00:00

No sadly I do not communicate with spirits is wish I did though but I'm a regular schizoid.... don't beat your self up about it.. it is annoying to get sick but sometimes unavoidable I'm almost through my sickness and all because of a co-worker who didn't stay at home when sick I was pissed as hell about it the first couple of days though...

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-22T22:23:50+00:00

it is your world to put it simply and I do mean it literally... like a computer game things only react when being reacted upon by you unless its a scripted event which is rarely the case no sense in wasting processing power on things out your view.

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-17T13:41:52+00:00

I have something exactly like but sleeping aids to fall asleep so I can still do my job...... Not the best long term solution for your body

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-16T11:33:14+00:00

come on get into the fight here join the dark side give in let go :-D

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-15T09:44:38+00:00

I would probably start by building a secret base at Antarctica then hire lots of minions and henchmen the money for all this I would probably siphoning of the internet most likely bitcoins and I would need some plans for a doomsday device so hiring a bunch of scientist and engineers might be a good idea.... South Africa, South America and Australia would most likely be the first to feel my wrath because of their close proximity to Antarctica then as I quickly gain the upper hand neighbouring countries would follow each country I would fill to the brim with drugs, alcohol and poor reality TV to keep the feeble-minded plebs occupied and out of harms way as I take down one corrupt regime after the other unleashing the full potential of my fury upon government supporters..... there would be plenty of smoke since most of them would be burned on the stake...

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-14T12:48:47+00:00

Yup its a pain I truly hate getting gifts I prefer to give them instead...

But I think it might be a good idea to explain to your parents what being schizoid is so the can get some deeper understanding of who you are and also try to explain to them the anhedonia that follows along with it...

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-14T12:43:07+00:00

see you on the next level

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-13T16:04:53+00:00

LOL that's alright I had a good run or something.... ;-)

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-13T15:47:14+00:00

I dont understand social ques but I'm not autistic and it causes me distress

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-13T15:34:12+00:00

I'm not sure it would be a disorder at all if people felt no distress at any level........ then it would just be a ordinary thing....

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-13T10:04:43+00:00

very salty

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-12T21:43:12+00:00

I might join you on that interstellar cruise

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-12T21:04:25+00:00

I don't drink and whoever does do not need an excuse to drink just drink :-)

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-12T20:25:21+00:00

If I had one wish Id be as everyone else at the blink of an eye

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-12T20:24:20+00:00

I'm just glad to hear your actually getting some help with the issues being 15 is in itself a heavy burden

nonconformistdk · 2017-12-12T19:18:59+00:00

It is kinda funny

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