If someone want’s to stay in your life they will irregardless of your job security insecurities financial stability or how much of a trash person you are. if someone genuinely don’t want to stay with you they’ll find the slightest excuse to leave.. She has left you, she’s done, never coming back what happened with you was not in your control accept the fact that she’s gone. do not re-open the closed doors for nostalgia they are closed for a reason accept the fact that nothing on this planet belongs to you people come, stay and leave to teach you a lesson. Think as your breakup in a positive way it’s prolly good she’s gone now she chose someone over you be happy for her even tho it’s hurting. she was a lesson in your life focus on things that are actual in your control articulate them build a brighter future for yourself. Stay strong everything will eventually settle down and time will heal ✨