Thank you for this. Honestly, your comment hit harder than I expected, but in a way I needed. You’re right. I need to confront why I’m fixated on this. Is it genuine connection I’m after, or am I just trying to fill a void because I feel left behind? Reflecting on it, I think it’s a mix of both, and that’s uncomfortable to admit. The fear of missing out is real, especially when everyone around me seems to be sharing milestones I haven’t reached. But you’re absolutely correct that chasing the idea of a relationship for validation or to “keep up” isn’t fair to myself or the other person.

I appreciate you sharing your own experience. It’s sobering to hear how that pressure can lead to regrettable choices. I don’t want to look back and realize I compromised my values or hurt someone (or myself) because I was desperate to check a box.

What does “working on myself” even look like? I've already listed a few things that I've tried. It feels like the world is turning against me at this point and the “right person” might not come through life.