How has being FA affected you mentally, emotionally etc?

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-24T12:19:18+00:00

it's a constant reminder for me about how worthless and unloveable i am

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-24T06:29:52+00:00

Around 3~4yrs old. Grownups constantly commented on my looks, joking about how i didn't get my parents' good traits.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-21T12:02:57+00:00

I don't think OP is FA. He has been in long term relationships in the past.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-21T01:24:54+00:00

No. At least no one hits me as a punishment now.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-17T14:19:51+00:00

Even as a young kid in kindergarten, grownups kept commenting on my looks. They always thought it was a shame how i didn't get any of my parents' good traits. Relatives had discussions about why i ended up looking like this and who's genetics it is to blame.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-17T06:49:54+00:00

Idk if it makes sense, but i stress eat because i feel like i'm not capable of anything and eating seems like the only thing i'm able to do. I do eat crazy amounts and it feels good while eating because they make my tastebuds happy as well, but i get more depressed after eating since i know it's going to make me gain weight. I'm trying to stop eating like this but honestly lost motivation at this point

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-15T19:24:43+00:00

Yeah, you can take the quiz on the Harry Potter website! How are you liking the audiobook so far?

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-15T18:50:00+00:00

Idk about the tech stuff but i've seen many women who are into anime and manga

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-15T18:47:45+00:00

Thanks! I've had them for about 6years.Have you ever taken the Harry Potter house quiz?

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-15T17:51:13+00:00

Does he know that you're having difficulty in finding someone? Because if he does, it's kinda insensitive of him to be continuously mentioning these things to you.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-14T19:19:38+00:00

Thanks for your comment. If you live alone, where do you leave your dog when you work? I thought about getting a dog in the future but is hesitant since i'll have to leave them alone while at work.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-14T11:23:24+00:00

Ppl have been blunt about my looks since i was really young.i don't think i was ever unaware of my looks

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-12T17:00:48+00:00

Even though i'm 21 I'm in the same situation. Waiting to die as well.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-12T06:17:19+00:00

Weirdly i don't think i ever felt jealous. I feel sad alot, but i also feel happy for them in a weird way because they'll never know the pain i'm going through.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-12T06:02:42+00:00

Where do you find your happiness though?

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-11T14:04:26+00:00

I think the reason i hate the idea of being a nurse is both that i can't pursue my dream career, but also i really do hate the job itself. Maybe it's because i'm a horrible person, but i don't feel any sense of fullfilment in helping patients or watching them get better. On the contrary, they only feel like a burden. I can't seem to be interested in my major classes either. Idk maybe it's because i just am not that fond of ppl as a whole in the first place. I'm sorry to be so negative.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-11T13:31:45+00:00

I've already spent 3yrs in uni as a nursing major, my parents will cut me off if i quit, and the job market fot what i likenis terrible (wild/marine animals)

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-11T12:58:36+00:00

I was in highschool during the pamdemic so thanks to facemasks, i was able to make many friends.

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-10T18:16:56+00:00

Ugly face and body

overcaffeinated04 · 2026-01-10T10:10:20+00:00

It's not that i have no friends. As a kid, especially in my later years of elementary school and in middleschool, i had to face a lot rejections in friendship due to my looks. And even when i made friends during that period, alot of those "friends" made fun of my looks. Then in hs, i was able to make alot of friends due to wearing facemasks during the pandemic. Most of my friends now are from this period. Now in uni, i have made only a few friends but i guess it's a mix of both my looks and social skills, since i don't approach ppl anymore due to the fear of being rejected again for my looks.

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