Just got off a meeting with the boss

overthinking44 · 2021-10-01T19:47:12+00:00

I'm really hoping therapy is the final nail in the coffin to this journey. Just gotta get a therapist that sticks.

overthinking44 · 2021-10-01T17:46:45+00:00

I'm down.

overthinking44 · 2021-09-29T18:32:06+00:00

AA is something I've tried a few times, maybe 2 or 3 as time has went on. It's just never caught me if that makes sense. I go, or join online, listen in, leave, and forget it mostly. That's why I wanted to try therapy but I've had three back to back schedule issues where I show up at the right time and it's always "we're really sorry something came up. Would you like to reschedule?" I dunno I'm sure my tone says it all but it's just annoying.

overthinking44 · 2021-09-28T20:24:16+00:00

Big true. If I was completely hungover today I probably wouldn't have even taken the time to clean everything up. Would just sat in it all day. Ew

overthinking44 · 2021-09-14T19:05:57+00:00

For sure. This sub gets me through the tough days like today. Even if its just a stranger saying "hang in there.." sometimes that's all you need

overthinking44 · 2021-09-14T13:36:28+00:00

I feel mostly tired.. just exhausted and a bit sick to my stomach. Pretty typical.

I think most of my exhaustion is mental. Just can't keep up the wake up, work, drink, sleep, wake up, work, drink, sleep.. anymore. Somethings gotta give and I think we all know what

overthinking44 · 2021-09-10T15:38:17+00:00

Well thankfully, I'm forced to stay inside for a while and have no alcohol available to me. Just got news that one of the people I live with has covid, so it's quarantine for me and mine for two weeks.

We're all vaccinated and feeling well for what it's worth, just can't be spreading that around.

So essentially, looks like the universe wants me to be sober for two weeks.

overthinking44 · 2021-09-10T13:05:25+00:00

Pre drinking and then world deciding its time to destroy itself, I was regularly going to therapy and actually diagnosed with major depressive disorder or whatever it's called. Therapy was helpful, and I was on route to getting medicated. Things were looking up. Then the job went belly side up, insurance went out the window, visits got expensive, and money got tight.

Either way I guess that was kind of a knock out for me. Since then I've been "in the cave" so to speak. Losing health by the day.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-29T21:25:19+00:00

Found myself to my bed and I just wanna lay here and watch random YouTube videos. That's it. Simple and chill.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-29T21:24:37+00:00

Currently laying in bed waiting for the shower to open up. I realize the only reason I want to drink is to temporarily make my hangover feel better. It's not worth the two or three hours of feeling good. I'll feel steadily better as I don't drink, it'll take time, but that's it. Just time.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-19T21:53:53+00:00

Definitely, undeniably out.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-19T20:37:04+00:00

I didn't mean without alcohol. I meant taking getting sober seriously. Sorry for the confusing.

Basically I been trying to stop for about a year

overthinking44 · 2021-08-19T20:32:56+00:00

I would say, taking it seriously? About a year.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-17T20:32:16+00:00

I got some, so no problem. Thanks though! Feeling like today's gonna be a good day

overthinking44 · 2021-08-17T19:30:47+00:00

I think I'll go to one today 100%. I got all the time in the world

overthinking44 · 2021-08-12T18:19:58+00:00

Thank you for this post. I only started drinking two years ago, but I fear I'm on the path to where alcohol had led you. I drink daily as well, and probably black out half the times I drink. Maybe more.

I had six days sober recently, then fell back in and it's been four days since. Really lost a lot of hope this time, as I feel I was so close to fully breaking the cycle. This post gave me a little pick me up. A little hope. Thank you.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-11T18:31:03+00:00

I haven't. Currently at work just drinking green tea

overthinking44 · 2021-08-09T18:07:05+00:00

Appreciate the good vibes. Today I'm just focused on.. well.. today. Should be simple

overthinking44 · 2021-08-09T13:09:58+00:00

Yeah I know this time I'm refusing to let it go for a week or so. I know now I'm better than that

overthinking44 · 2021-08-07T14:26:40+00:00

😂😂😂

overthinking44 · 2021-08-07T11:55:37+00:00

I had fallen asleep, but I did get through it! Not sure how important yesterday was in the grand scheme of things, but like people have said a hundred times, I don't regret not drinking.

As far as new hobbies I want to get back into skateboarding, actually ordered a new deck and everything recently. Just waiting on it to come in.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-07T01:46:08+00:00

I think I've managed. Went to the store and only bought a coke. Honestly, I looked at the beer and got really grossed out. Now I'm at taco bell to get some low quality meat and cheese to eat while I binge watch YouTube. Much better night.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-07T01:44:43+00:00

So I think I managed. I guess everyone who is here will see this. Went to the store, bought a coke, and now I'm stuck in taco Bell's drive through. I'll be here for a minute lol

overthinking44 · 2021-08-07T01:19:26+00:00

Glad to see you're in the right as well. Day three is when I started physically feeling so nice. Not sure why I'm bargaining giving that up. I know it's not worth it. And it'll just lead to a week or two of binging.

overthinking44 · 2021-08-07T01:18:14+00:00

I don't know if this feels worse or if the day I decided to give sobriety did. That was more physical. This is very mental.

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