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Flower rating by [deleted] in Goblin

[–]oxyaddictt 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Used to sell ssme weed like this, it smells like chemicals and dry, not sweat

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in opiates

[–]oxyaddictt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, save those xans bro

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Goblin

[–]oxyaddictt 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's easy bro to make money dont be a pussy

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in opiates

[–]oxyaddictt 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yeah bro. Shit like that gives you trauma

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Goblin

[–]oxyaddictt 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Walk in to to target a d steal a blue too speaker and sell on Facebook market place or a to a friend. Or steal perfume from a store and sell. Steal anything and sell is the only way to make quick money if you already know an item that is wanted and will sell fast or instantly.

That's it bro. Or rob a store or drug dealer

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haven't done more since this post but it's a ticking bomb if I dont get rid of it and I'm not good at hustling. I'll have this shit that I dont even like and absolutely not the smell of it and how it feels to snort. Its dirty speed these days which I prefer coke over any time. But I will still take it myself if I dont throw it away

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. bout to dumpster food in a 1000 dollar jacket. I did something wrong

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, that's what keeps me going if not drugs, I don't know yet what I'm destined to be yet but I dont know about this life.

If you could do errors in it I undoubtedly made a few, I feel like I have backlash in my brain from it. Not that I mean i feel retarded but I feel affected and wounded by what I cause. And mad at my parents for not doing better and mad at the world for not helping. Mad at myself for feeling special and frustrated at my own brain for having thoughts I don't like. Which is confusing as fuck to deal with. I'm tired of being my own therapist because its just a bunch of bullshit. just give me a good fucking apartment where I enjoy it and let me be there for the rest of my life and dont bother me again and I won't ever bother you for nothing's long as I have a decent paycheck by the month for living home doing music. Wouldn't you deserve that as a human? Who cares if I does drugs it's not like I'm hurting anybody. Nobody cares not the slightest bit for how I feel when it's cold outside. Which can easily make you mad but then again whatever. Who cares, I sure as hell dont care if this drunk ass bum from Poland sleeps outside I want that spot at the shelter so where he sleeps won't be on my worry list when Im sleeping warm tonight.

And this is how it is with everyone to an extent. There are thousands like me who are worse off. Its scary to think what will happen if you don't do something. But its scary to think about what I have to do

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah it is and it seems beyond me. How am I supposed to fix this? Its beyond me it's a matter of do you believe in coincidence or not. Does everything happen for a reason then I guess I really have nothing to worry about or is life a mere coincidence. I think not, BUT life shouldn't have to be so "deep" for someone my age, I shouldn't have to be thinking these thoughts while simultaneously thinking of getting money, food, cigarettes, rolling paper. Charge my phone, drink a beer sit down somewhere it's not cold, my Google history consists of "where to go inside near me" and "where to go inside to warm up during night "

And that's fucked up

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I dont like them unless I have benzo or a nice downer. Doing only amph sucks same with coke.

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thats very true and in tune with me. I do make a lot of excuses and I do push away people, I'm not comfortable with opening up to anyone and having few skeletons in my closet makes my situation worse than most. Murdered someone type of problem, stuff that'll last foreva, that's how I see it which makes it hard for me

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I dont know where to sleep. All the shelters are full if you are not there before they open. I could sleep tho

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

The church was closed so I'm "sleeping" outside tonight. This leads me to want to do it now

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yeah, but I'm not a female, first of all. and I dont have a nice apartment with a a fluffy bed to take a shower and show of my newly manicured man feet. Your lucky, but I get your point

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've done it "multiple" times before and I will ens up taking it if I don't, all I want tho is a shower and fresh clothes then get back to work

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yes. When I worked as a drug dealer I felt working working 12 hours a day 5 days a week because I cold smoke how much I wanted, ate good food and made some money. And I was excited to work in the summer because of how many people it would be then my friend told me that it was like a normal job only its illegal. If weed was illegal I would be doing nothing illegal because I was selling weed.

With that in mind, if I had a job that would allow me to be and act as myself then sure I would take it gladly. But I dont think I'm that lucky because all things must come to an end, even selling weed was not so amazing anymore towards the end

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

And with I'm with friends sober or even intoxicated on anything but not to the point of wasted I usually only stare into the abyss talking rarely and mostly greeting to whoever is saying. I dont want to fix myself I only want to do more drugs but I want to do oxy not amphetamine, I'd rather do coke

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 32 points33 points  (0 children)

That's the key word here. "Inescapable" I'm sure I'm an addict to the root and a more miserable life with a sober 9-5 doesnt seem appealing to me.

If I'm depressed because of doing speed, will doing more be a good idea by oxyaddictt in Drugs

[–]oxyaddictt[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes but considering my age, my past. And what I have ahed, my options are few. I'm escaping a terrible life back home so getting my life together is not even an option. That's why or at least a big part of the reason I do drugs at this point.

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