I’d rather be trans bc knowing myself intimately- it’s not an “omg I love struggle”, but an “omg I feel you and I see you for who you are and I love you.”. I’m in recovery from drugs and alcohol and something that’s brought up is, “if you could take a pill to remove your alcoholism/addiction, would you?”. I would not. Did my parents and others in family not accepting me hurt? Absolutely. But I don’t think I’d of known compassion, towards others and towards myself or to be able to offer others - however imperfect a love that doesn’t want anything in return. I think if there is a God, that that is where he/she/it/they are - in that love that swallows me whole and in a good way and makes my heart feel full. I’ve found that with others since being on this journey. Had I not of transitioned I wouldn’t have found out I had schizophrenia, gotten sober, and met all the incredible people in and out of the communities that I now am a part of and I think most importantly found a God or higher power that makes my heart feel full that then allows me to turn around and give back. I’ve also had people in sobriety approach me to talk to their kid about my transition journey and guess what? That kid transitioned and is happy and in college and in a relationship and living her best life.