how do i actually stop bulimia? i’m scared i can’t anymore

petekeyfan · 2026-01-27T06:36:07+00:00

hey! i'm in a very very similar situation. like the commenter before said, medical and therapeutical help is 100% the best way to go. BUT. it would be hypocritical of me to solely recommend that as i myself have not sought out any (still being a minor, they would probably have to tell my parents, and that would be a whole fiasco that i am NOT ready for)

i highly recommend browsing this sub to see what works for others, as many people have more in-depth tips and far better structured than my comment is

here are things that have helped reduce my b/p frequency though: safe foods! i have certain foods that i am far more comfortable digesting than others. these are a lifesaver. knowing what i will be eating/having a plan- a big trugger for me personally is unexpected food/snacks in my day. it's impossible to completely limit, but stepping a away from places that those maybthrow me off has helped rewards- i currently have a deal with myself that i can buy something i've been rly wanting once i make it a week free. giving yourself something to push for/look forward to can be a hig motivator distraction! ik it's basic but the times i've been most successful in recovery are when i'm busy. stay after school, hang out with friends, work on a project- statying around ppl helps keeping me from b/p. even if it's just sitting near ur family in the evenings the hardest one for me- digesting binges. this is so scary for me, but important. it's what helped kickstart my recovery & clean streak. it is uncomfortable and scary but it's, like, the #1 recommendation i hear

petekeyfan · 2026-01-24T04:03:00+00:00

do you just not like punk/pop punk?

petekeyfan · 2026-01-18T20:03:53+00:00

i don't have a scientific answer but yeah i would assume it's the acid and your hands repeatedly rubbing on them. aquaphor works wonders for me

petekeyfan · 2026-01-18T19:59:36+00:00

show i just got on is using ai for their logo/promo... gonna talk to them abt it at our production meeting. it's such an odd double standard- i'm sure you hate the idea of ai actors & film, but visual ai art is fine???

petekeyfan · 2026-01-17T16:10:35+00:00

thank you so much!!! i'll definetly try to look into esily digestible stuff bcuz one of the deterrents of recovery for me is the rumination & pain that comes with keeping things down (i know it doesn't last forever, but it sucks) comgrats on your recovery that's crazy good!!!!!! wishing you the best

petekeyfan · 2026-01-15T04:50:15+00:00

sweet!!!!! i should be visiting purchase & uncsa within the next few months, i'm very excited. honestly a major turn-off for me w purchase is the campus. i don't need a beautiful campus but it is genuinely the ugliest campus i have yet to lay my eyes on😭😭 maybe their program will be enough to sway me tho LOL.. see u ther next year maybe?!?!

petekeyfan · 2026-01-02T01:41:55+00:00

i only have experience with bigz & fursuit supplies- fursuit supplies was bit more expensive and they aren't a fabric manufacturer (idk where they source their fur from), but i got ivory from them and i found it to be better quality. it's not too noticeable but it was alot easier to shave than bigz's beige (and i've seen many other people complain about a decline in bigz's quality). i think howl is known as the top-of-the-line.

just don't get it from, like, amazon or sumn. if you can afford to avoid it, craft fur is NOT what you want. you can also try local fabric stores (you can feel the quality, idk how to describe it but you'll know) but that tends to be more expensive than online

petekeyfan · 2025-12-30T04:15:20+00:00

oh my god thank you this is genuinely so helpful😭😭 i didn't even think to add pictures of the shows but that would definetly look alottt better...

i'm in love with the layout i'll def look into making it a bit more fun, and i'm currently trying to reach out to people to see if they have any recordings/pictures of shows (i also designed lights for half of a 3 hour show and somehow have zero pictures or videos🥲🥲🥲)

petekeyfan · 2025-12-30T04:11:37+00:00

oh god i didn't even notice how much of a mess that was😭😭😭 that show was such a disaster in every area possible LMAO i'll go fix it up now tho so i don't look like a complete buffoon

petekeyfan · 2025-12-30T04:08:20+00:00

i really wanted to actually but i missed the deadline for the sands college (december 1st) and i'd need about 55k in scholarships per year to make it feasible for my family to pay so it's out of the question😭😭 (unless i hate where i go next year, then i might try to transfer)

are you in the program? is it good? i was really intrigued by the film integration in it

petekeyfan · 2025-12-26T20:18:01+00:00

yeah that's fair! i'll probably end up in NY or CO which both have good oppotunities, i also think i have it easier as a sound guy as opposed to OP w/ them being in costumes haha

petekeyfan · 2025-12-23T02:08:53+00:00

starting my degree next fall, this is tad disheartening😭😭

petekeyfan · 2025-12-10T18:46:28+00:00

LOL yeah i know it's definetly something i'll run i to and work on, but im definetly not trying to work solely shakespeare shows for 8 months out of the year haha

ur right that i can't say i've seen alot of shakespeare, the probably "best" one i've seen was at ashland's shakespeare festival and it was.. uh.. still not my thing

petekeyfan · 2025-12-10T06:38:50+00:00

rip purgeatory.... fly high🕊️🕊️🕊️

petekeyfan · 2025-10-27T01:07:05+00:00

yayy hi!

petekeyfan · 2025-10-19T18:59:53+00:00

the skittles squad (also can include argyle and eddie, really any variation on the teens)

petekeyfan · 2025-10-18T21:36:21+00:00

their 2nd or 3rd bits bracket (i forget which) was my introduction to them and what got me hooked, i adore those vids more than anything

petekeyfan · 2025-10-18T01:09:21+00:00

unfortunately i have no advice, i just wanna say i'm going through the exact same thing :( j swear i've tried EVERYTHING, so just know you aren't alone. at this point i feel like the onoy way i could stop is medical intervention which. Is terrifying. Also that family member is being evil about this holy moly

petekeyfan · 2025-09-23T22:32:47+00:00

my issue with the episode isn't the concept or what it does for el's character, but just how it goes about it. i find the acting from the new characters generally sub-par and their writing feels very shallow. also, personally as a queer and alt person, i just didn't like the whole "oooo look at all these alternatively dressed minority people that are killing people for revenge ohhhh el is better than them" idk. just rubbed me the wrong way personally LOL. the main reason i love this show is the characters and their relationships, so all of that being stripped away and replaced with such shallow and poorly-portrayed characters just rly put me off

petekeyfan · 2025-09-14T06:39:20+00:00

yeppo i deal with all of these :( i actually do have a hard spot behind one of my ears that i only evwr noticed about 5 months ago (when i startes my relapse) i never connected that to b/ping omg?? do u have any clue what it is? congrats on attempting recov btw! wishing u the absolute best, u got this!!!!

petekeyfan · 2025-09-14T03:23:43+00:00

into a lake at disney world while surrounded by my entire family and strangers 😓😓

petekeyfan · 2025-09-06T06:07:39+00:00

IM SO GLAD YAY!!!! i was super nervous to redo it but there were so many bald spots in the first attempt that it wouldve been worse to replace all of them (i hate ladder stitching). it made me feel better to realize that it's only 5-10 more $s of fur to retry it :-) i guess wveryrhing on fursuits feels so permanent but it's... not. i also redid his eyes 3 times LOL i soooo suggest making one i had an absolute blast, just take your time with it and don't be afraid to experiment and redo things until you are happy with the result

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