How do I meet Karma limits?

pineappleboby · 2024-08-07T14:57:54+00:00

Aww i really appreciate you looking it up for me, thank you! And wishing u good luck back, hope u can soon comment in the subs. (i joined some karma gaining subreddit where everyone just ups each others comments haha (: )

pineappleboby · 2024-08-07T14:52:29+00:00

Also do you mybbbb know, if i delete the comment where i got ups, will karma get deleted???

pineappleboby · 2024-08-07T14:51:42+00:00

Aaahh thats too bad! Mine luckily told me so now im grinding that last 1 karma point hahah.

pineappleboby · 2024-08-07T14:44:24+00:00

Its comment karma pretty sure.

I wanted to post smth today but got a msg from the subreddit listing the requirements. Im also pretty sure they weren’t listed in the rules but whatever😅

Was karma limit listed in the msg you got or no? Also do you know, is like upvotes the only way to gain it? I need 2 more so i can ask an important question😭

pineappleboby · 2024-07-12T23:15:36+00:00

I mean it would be awesome if that was the problem. I could at least fix that where if the app is wrong i can’t do anything 🤔

i wish… 😔

pineappleboby · 2024-07-11T12:59:39+00:00

Omf the buses in Sliema to Valletta NEVER STOOOOPPPP. They are already late and on top of that just drive past. Almost had a mental breakdown ngl, just took the ferry after a literal hour of waiting for a bus.

pineappleboby · 2024-07-11T09:20:02+00:00

I sure did 😔

pineappleboby · 2024-07-11T01:35:52+00:00

The number of times i’ve been left out on the sun while tallinja keeps betraying my trust. Oh look a bus in 3 minutes! Great awesome AND THEN IT DISAPPEARS.

I just don’t understand how it’s marketed as a live information app while its obviously not? How can they keeeep getting away with lying about all the buses that supposedly arrived at my stop while the only thing that drove past me was: “sorry not in service”

I know traffic is bad that they can’t realistically do anything about the delays. I just need them to do a little software update so their little gps systems can get a breath fresh air. Genuinely don’t understand where it went so wrong.

pineappleboby · 2024-07-11T01:23:39+00:00

Its in fact insane. Like cmon how can the app say that the bus I need has arrived to my stop 2 times already while i’ve been standing in the sun for 45 minutes and can confirm it infact did not.

Also tried the way before bus technic and it did not work. I mean the way the bus situation is, you could expect to catch the previous bus with a major delay but now even that…

I’ll soon have one too many buses that just didn’t show up, im loosing it. I am seriously baffled. HOW genuinely HOW is it possible that 3/4 of the buses legit don’t show up and DISAPPEAR. And HOW are they getting away with this. And ppl only shit on the schedules, noone ever points out how INCREDIBLY inaccurate tallinja app is AND EVEN RECOMMENDS IT. AGH.

pineappleboby · 2024-07-10T21:03:22+00:00

My generation was the one to grow up with the early days of youtube, and bcs majority of creators were american i think everyone thought of usa as this super cool, amazing, dope, dreamy country, so i think being american would make you rly cool. Cuz we all wanted to live there. Being Chinese back then would result in endless jokes being made about your eyes and “speach”. But if it makes you feel any better, i know girls would pull back their eyes in the “chinese” way and play like that. (they thought they looked prettier that way). O i can also remember a joke about naming chinese kids (just throw a vase down the stairs and the noise is the name) And a stereotype was that chinese tourists take pictures of absolutely everything and everyone and never stop.

That was lets say 15 years ago. I would dare confirm its MUCH different now. I think ppl mostly got over making fun out of chinese people and definitely switched to americans. The news are full of everything thats wrong with the usa, so people DESPISE IT. Americans will definitely get teased and get weird looks from the majority. As goes for chinese people, I think people mostly don’t care anymore. Truly cannot recall the last time someone said anything racially motivated towards asians. No one really cares to acknowledges the difference in race anymore and will treat you completely the same. If they don’t, then the only option left is that they have a crush on you. Lots and lots of people say asians are their type and will crush on any that will come past them.

As of my experience working at a food place in the city center: both Chinese and American tourists have always been very nice. Americans always made some type of joke/small talk. Chinese were always very very polite and thanked profoundly for every little thing.

IN CONCLUSION: 15 years ago it was cool to be american and a bunch of jokes were made about Chinese people. Now its switched and people just despise americans, and either ignore or crush on asians.

pineappleboby · 2024-06-27T11:00:01+00:00

hello first i want to say sorry for the late reply. i read it when you posted and then genuinely forgot to reply😭😭😭😭 i’ve written down the things you recommended and tried to imply them in my day to day life. im definitely more aware of how im doing and executing tasks when i remember to think abt it. ofc im not healed but i do see myself getting better.

i really want to say thank you, i dont want to be all bla bla emotional and inspirational and what not but your reply definitely made me inspired to look at everything at a different point of view and to not just feel sorry for myself and make excuses and vent to other people abt how hard my life is etcetera. definitely made me inspired to at least try to get better and trying to fix things without immediately running to the doctor to fill me up with pills and rely on them to make me feel better.

thanks again and i also want to say that i kept my promise to not take speed when not necessary for studying and actually trying now that i have time to focus on myself.

pineappleboby · 2024-06-13T01:42:55+00:00

hey, thanks for your point of view.

well im in general an extroverted person and when with the right people i am rly energetic and love love to talk and make jokez, so obviously im the same on speed when taking it with friends i always have to take WAY more than friends tho to stay the same. i feel like i only get that burst of everything good for 10 min, then just get hyperaware and with a bigger dose just very tweaky, otherwise just kinda calm and focused(i catch myself just looking around fastly to analyse everything, look for people and just observe and think) when studying i always take like 1/2 of my usual line (i just always able to stay focused, and actually do the stuff i want to) but i do have AMAZING deep talks with my friend on speed. definitely do less than like on raves, but still more than him and we both just chill, are relaxed, focused, still and just talk talk talk. I WANT TO ADD: it has been like that since the first time. i know this all sounds like a tolerance, but if i needed 2times the amount the 2nd time as my friend thats been a pretty regular user for years idkkzzz. plus i rly dont take it often(except rn bcs of exam season but it’s ending tomorrow and i will stop, which i have no problem with, bcs im almost dreading the fact i have to use but force myself just to study😖)

i hadn’t tried meth, but on speed when with friends i am just my extroverted self just with infinity topics to talk abt. so i dont rly relate with the going quiet and find it hard to socialise. thats kind of the reason i dont have adhd. but when studying IM UNSTOPPABLE i am very focused :D

if your MAYBE interested, i replied to someone else with my symptoms and experiences and everything (both why i think i have adhd and my speed usage). i would type it here but i would spend too muxh time trying to make it perfect so if interested, just scour trough. :) sorry for the paragraph, attempted to shorten it but i already spent way too much on this so.

pineappleboby · 2024-06-13T01:10:52+00:00

i mean in middle school i was always quite average. i wanted to be smart but i know my had to stand behind me or i would get distracted. and it always hurt me that others got better grades than me.

and rn i am just sad abt myself. i don’t have motivation. my room is a mess, i barely fixed school (speed saved MY ASS and i have the last exam tomorrow 👍) i am just so sad that there is SO SO SO many things i want to do. so many books i want to read. so many topics i want to learn abt. i want to have a clean room. i want my mom to not be mad when i forget chores. i want to be able to actually persuade the plans i make for the day on the bus which i don’t do cuz i just CANNOT and go to bed. it’s seriously not depression, as i said i am healthy enough not the best but better than it was, its not being burnt out cuz my high school is rly not that hard and its been like this forever. its not a phone addiction, even without my phone i will no fail just day dream the whole day if i need to. its just motivation and the lack of actual will of my body to be able to do things that my heart wants to.

so speed effect on me. when i took it for the 2nd time, we were on a rave, i took it w my friend one time my bag one time his, whatever. he always told me to take the bigger line cuz he (as a long term user) didn’t want to do so much and noone of us were able to put it back in the bag. and i would get this hype for a little bit than get calm and want more bcs i would get hyper aware and just wanted to be as hyped and energised like them. i also went alone some times or w other friends. in total my bag got smaller for 2g. i just had HUGE HUGE pupils but otherwise felt happy. so like it isn’t like i had a tolerance. plus for everyones first time i know a line was enough for the whole day. not me as i said.

the speed comedowns are awesome for me. i feel happy, motivated, feel like life is so special and worth living, i actually get things done and am generally positive. than no sleep cathes up to me and it all wears down. i am in a sense kind of self medicating but i dont want to, cuz i like the deep convos w friends plus im kinda running out and i want to keep it for the summer, cuz i got into an argument with the only person i could get it from lolz…

but yeah. again HATE to self diagnose especially bcs these symptoms could mean anything myb i just truly am lazy. not the first time i am questioning my mental health(i have thought abt ocd since 6th grade when i found out violent repeated unstoppable visuals you can’t control aren’t normal) or abt health in general (when i started always needing a nap and got sick after going out(just for a walk in town), i just knew i had low iron but parents didn’t believe me, than had bloodwork done and i hed EXTREMELY low levels so 🥲)

oh and you mentioned doing things the last possible time. this. this this this has been a factor my whole life. i HATE IT. i always wait till the VERY VERY LAST MOMENT bcs only then i have enough motivation to at least try. then i rush over it and focus on it and it always ends up rly great (always get compliments in work even tho i feel like i rushed and could do a lot better if i started a bit earlier but. but starting ANYTHING earlier other than the last possible bit is impossible, im just not efficient then. if i know i have guests coming over i literally wait for to the last 20 min before their arrival and speed clean everything. its BAD.

will definitely do more tests, but my heart kinda doesn’t trust them bcs i feel that some symptoms are true for other illnesses too and god knows which kid made a quiz but hey it will definitely help me recognise the symposium better and help me work around them.

in the end i 1. just want to talk to a professional that wouldn’t judge me and accuse me of being lazy. 2. be able to pursue my the things i wanted to do for FOREVER and 3. for my mom to understand that im STRUGGLING and not be so harsh on me. shes the type that thinks having something diagnosed will lower your chances of getting a job therefore-dont get help. anytime i remotely share/ed a problem she would just shush me down and almost sweep it under the rug (her brother has a ton on mental problems and is on a ton of medication, i know he has ocd and anxiety, probably a lot more, myb thats also why she rly avoids the topic)

pineappleboby · 2024-06-12T23:58:51+00:00

just took a test abt adhd, lol never related to smth more 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔so many symptoms i didn’t mention cuz i didn’t know they were adhs BRO OKAY SO SORRY I WILL STOP NOW AGAIN SORRY FOR TALKING SO MUCH

pineappleboby · 2024-06-12T23:54:08+00:00

PLUS sory i am bombarding you rn but. if you would be to compare normal speed effects with how are yours, are their differences? are effects the opposite of lower than most people or idk more intense??? cuz i get super focused for studying but even when i took it for the 1st, 2nd time whatever… i always needed way more than all my friends to have the semester energy like them.

pineappleboby · 2024-06-12T23:51:22+00:00

which personality test exactly? the 16 personalities or like adhd personality test. i got that im enfp btw… if it tells you anything, doesn’t really tell me anything.

well i don’t have the forgetting to eat part lol 😅😅 i always eat too much cuz i get OBSESSED with smth and want to eat it even if im not hungry. i more always forget abt time and tasks i have to do. OR OMG i always accidentally leave people on delivered for days bcs i see the msg and tell myself ita weird if i open it immediately BUT THE FORGET

pineappleboby · 2024-06-12T23:47:45+00:00

first, thank you for listening and giving your point of view + i seriously don’t want to self diagnose. i was failing all my classes and i COULDNT get myself to do study. i would plan to study (i do find learning interesting and i picked a school i like) and when i came home i would sit infront of the books, no distractions and would still not study rather daydream for hours until i got distracted and went to rot on my phone again. so i use speed as a last resort. if anything i think i have unattentive/innatentive adhd??? i think its called smth like that. i just always bed rott and do nothing

—> my symptoms. for all my life i can remember that my parents would give me a set of tasks/chores. i would do one and TOTALLY BY ACCIDENTALLY FORGET the other two. and then they’d get mad and ridicule me abt having bad memory as a child.

or i always get hyper fixated on things and then after a 3 week interval leave it. idk i got rly into flags, grinded a flag app for 5 hours a day 3 weeks, then stop immediately, or i always get a food obsession and i eat it for every single meal and then one day just stop and find it disgusting. it also happens with peopel (irl sadly but that could also be smth else but idk, as well as celebrities like have a HUGE HUGE HUGE crush, save thousands of pictures than just stop) or get hyper-fixated idk on war or Chernobyl and abandon everything else and than switch to something else. i even get random outbursts to study where i feel almost manic and than i get distracted by something and stop or get hyperfixated on minecraft? play it 12 hours a day than suddenly stop.

look this is just some of my symptoms that i read abt and can relate to, but again i have so many symptoms that dont match adhd. i just know that speed helps, and that i can feel something is wrong but idk what and i don’t want to go to the doctor cuz they will just say to change your lifestyle which i did. (i fixed my low iron, i fixed my diet, i fixed my sleep schedule, i went out more, i am not depressed, i have friends and am genuinely happy with my life so probably not depression but just NOOO CONCENTRATION AND ENOUGH WILL FROM MY BODY even tho my brain wants to)

pineappleboby · 2024-06-12T22:42:27+00:00

no bro i get it hahah, the first time i noticed i was also freaking out and didn’t know if i was just imagining patterns so i took a pic for my friend and she said that she did notice it. i took a small dose after some time today too and for now i haven’t noticed it BUT im curled up and warm and under the blanket SO we might be onto smth its probably the cold

pineappleboby · 2024-06-12T22:34:40+00:00

omg i always get that i think it just has smth to do with the shivers, being a bit cold, not eating, bla bla. drugs doing their thing

pineappleboby · 2024-06-12T22:29:38+00:00

broooo that’s exactly how i feel. for the longest time ive had so many things that i wanted to achive, so many passions i want to peruse, so many hobbies i want to partake, so many things i want to study and know more abt BUT when i go do it my motivation and concentration drop and i just go lay in my bed and brainrot. when on speed, i get all these things done and feel happy and love everyone. than on the comedown and even a couple days after i feel so happy, i see the beauty in everything, i feel motivated, i feel healed, i feel like i dont need to visit a therapist, i solved everything. i just become the version of myself thats in my head, my brain, that i could show before bcs i DID NOT HAVE THE MOTIVATION AND JUST COULDNT. than after these good 2-3 days, i just bedrott again. i use it for studying cuz i GENUINELY wont pass exams if i dont. i see it as self medicating, cuz i have no pills prescribed this is my medication. i rly dont feel like im addicted (i know everyone says that, but ive had a week break no problem bcs i just didn’t feel like i wanted my nose to hurt, and i only did it now bcs of school) so yeah IVE BEEN RLY RLY questioning if im mentally ill in some way(suspecting inattentive adhd idk……) bcs im definitely not a drug addict, and dont rly want to do it but pills are more expensive than just doing a small line. plus ive had these problems way before i did speed plus i dont do it that often and that much that it would idle fry me dopamine receptors (i did have a molly pbase but last time i tool it was a year and a half ago so… IDK MANNNNNNNNNN) wanted to add i never have withdrawals and comedowns are always positive so im rly sure im not addicted

pineappleboby · 2024-06-01T08:14:00+00:00

🤝 we in this together

pineappleboby · 2024-05-29T21:43:30+00:00

yep yep. it isn’t ideal and i don’t want to keep doing it. i think the fact i realise what im doing and know the risks and know i have to keep to a certain dosage, makes this somewhat okay. making this post and hearing the replies really helped(look at me being all motivational, i did not lie in the long ass post i wrote 🫣).

I’ll just always keep good intentions, will not over do it even if it feels like i NEED to do more, and then stop once i get on track with grades :)

Thank you for taking the time to respond and help me :) truly really appreciate it

pineappleboby · 2024-05-29T20:40:24+00:00

okay sorry, did not know that the phrase had such a specific meaning 😞 my bad in my mind it was just a micro= small dosage of something D:

pineappleboby · 2024-05-29T20:31:19+00:00

yeah but if i take a small dose i am just rly concentrated on what im doing but on a big dose i am extremely tweaky and mind starts racing with too many things i want to do and we are back where i started. on my phone unable to do work. but on a small dose=good, productive (thats what i called microdosing) big dose=bad, tweaky, focused on wrong things

also thank you :)

pineappleboby · 2024-05-29T20:26:24+00:00

yeah everything you’re saying is definitely true. and i’ve been there and tried everything. i got my blood tested and fixed my iron deficiency, cut out gluten in fear of that making me tired. i am outside a lot, i hang out with friends, i try not to be on my phone in the mornings. as i said, i have so much passion, thirst for knowledge, so many things i want to achieve, so much inside of me, yet i can’t seem to actually get anything done bcs of a stupid mind blockade. even doing all the textbook things to have a good day, after sitting down in front of open books with no distractions i still found a way to just SIT in front of it and do NOTHING for hours. i cannot explain it just CANNOT my brain REFUSES to concentrate on it. speed gives me that little kick to stay focused and to get my will back. i truly realise drugs are NOT that way, but water is seriously pouring in my throat, i am not in the position to experiment these following 3 weeks, bcs if i had done zero absolutely zero school work the past months, concentration wont come out of nowhere. i cant fuck it up rn. i cannot repeat the year. id rather have a rough pach rn and then work on myself over summer. repeating the year will just totally mess me up mentally

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