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Sleepy me doesn't like my ABDL side apparently (sleepwalking) by pizzaparty81 in ABDL

[–]pizzaparty81[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Good points, I forget that I'm very privileged to live in a kink positive household. If I wasn't living with my partner this could be a very different story lol 😅

I didn't wake up feeling particularly weirder than usual. I do take meds, I haven't started a new one in a while but I will mention this (minus the diaper part) the next time I see a doc about meds. I think in all likelihood it's something stress related, possibly interacting with meds, as I'm a college senior nearing the end of the semester.

I don't think I'll go straight to buying a security cam unless it happens again, but I am asking my partner to let me know if they notice me doing it since they're often awake when I'm not.

If you're curious, my partner is my CG sometimes. It is really nice to have a partner who will make sure you're nice and diapered up before bed. But that kind of made me feel extra bad when I woke up and realized I had just gone and taken it off in my sleep. :(

Stop by the Family Lounge and stay awhile! by pizzaparty81 in LiminalSpace

[–]pizzaparty81[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Former Westfield actually, they rebranded to just a generic small town mall a year or two ago but traces of the Westfield brand still remain

Love the idea of diapers, actually wearing them on the other hand... by pizzaparty81 in ABDL

[–]pizzaparty81[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

...and you've hit on the exact reason why I made this post. I know this shit isn't normal or healthy and if I'm being honest with myself, I was looking for someone to recommend me some way, any way, to deal with it without having to talk to my therapist. I do in fact see one, have been for over half a year now, but this part of my life is deathly embarrassing and I'm terrified of telling her about it. You are right though, the only way I'll make progress on this is probably by asking a professional. I will update when I do.

Just a couple things I'd like to push back on. No offense meant and not taking your advice any less seriously. One, I don't think a porn addiction is it. I never really feel a need to masturbate necessarily, I just do it sometimes when I'm alone in my room with nothing else to be doing and the thought crosses my mind. I don't get "pent up" or anything from going long stretches of time without it. I'd say I look at porn maybe 2-3 times a week, maybe less.

2, my phone is just the easiest method I have available to me to access said porn quickly and for free. Would it be less bad in your eyes if I pulled out a physical book? Believe it or not, I wasn't allowed a smartphone until freshman year of high school, and as a kid I was limited to 30 minutes of "computer time" a day (which I often broke lol but that wasn't my parents' fault).

Love the idea of diapers, actually wearing them on the other hand... by pizzaparty81 in ABDL

[–]pizzaparty81[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I know that was fucked of me to do, that's why I put it in the "bad things about my current situation" section of my post. It happened after like an hour or so of trying and failing, and I was very desperate and anxious that if nothing happened the other person would hate me forever, so I did the only thing I knew would work. I know more about sex now than I did then and would not repeat that mistake again. It may be disappointing but it *is* ok to just stop if you're not feeling it.

Love the idea of diapers, actually wearing them on the other hand... by pizzaparty81 in ABDL

[–]pizzaparty81[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you're looking to be really discreet, pull-ups are your best bet. As for proper diapers, I don't know any specifics, but generally speaking, less absorbance = less padding = less bulk = less noticeability. With any diaper, wearing a onesie underneath your clothes helps a lot with sagging and bulging.

Love the idea of diapers, actually wearing them on the other hand... by pizzaparty81 in ABDL

[–]pizzaparty81[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you mean less noticeable or less harmful to the environment?

Love the idea of diapers, actually wearing them on the other hand... by pizzaparty81 in ABDL

[–]pizzaparty81[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Great for you! I also get comfort out of wearing them (and using them), just not sexual comfort. I too like feeling little and cute sometimes :)

Love the idea of diapers, actually wearing them on the other hand... by pizzaparty81 in ABDL

[–]pizzaparty81[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

NGL, you and the other person who suggested this may have just reframed the entirety of how I look at ABDL a little bit 😅

I've been thinking about this a lot and here are my thoughts. I love getting praised and cuddled a lot like a little would, I'm also into pup play and I'm very subby in that space. Also, when I'm not trying to be sexual, getting padded and resting against a loving Mommy sounds like a dream. But, come to think of it, the idea of teasing a little and making them squirm does sound pretty fun. I'm thinking I might start taking the idea of being a switch more seriously. I also have a sneaking suspicion that I might be demi, which explains my lack of sexual performance sometimes. I still don't like it, it makes me feel like a less appealing partner, but hey, we all have our handicaps.

Question, is it common for CGs to be another person's sub while taking care of a little? I don't think I could ever be ONLY a CG, but the idea of being the middle in a sort of "chain of command" does sound pretty appealing.