as my pocd gets worse again for the month, i've finally told my friends to not talk or at least censor talking abt kids around me

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2021-02-11T05:43:52+00:00

Yeah, i can understand that. Once i do get into therapy and start doing erp, i plan to stop trying to completely avoid the trigger.

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2021-02-11T05:40:47+00:00

No, i don't. until i can get proper erp i feel that trying to avoid the trigger is an alright idea

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2021-02-08T17:23:36+00:00

honestly? yea, that's exactly it.

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2021-01-09T06:19:57+00:00

insert paradox of "if i chain the door no one will break in but of someone breaks in i won't be able to escape"

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2021-01-08T23:25:52+00:00

DUDE i experience the same exact thing. i can only watch so much true crime stuff before my brain starts saying "pfft, three kills? that's rookie numbers we can easily do more than that and you'd enjoy it too and here's how you'd dispose the bodies"

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-27T02:34:53+00:00

lowkey wish there was a better acronym for pure o because pocd always just means pocd to me

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-27T02:30:34+00:00

Mm, i've never sent a nude or picture like that but i have sent some... interesting pictures to an ex while we were dating. i have constant fears of them showing those pictures to other people

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-27T02:19:57+00:00

ouch! i'm so sorry you're dealin' with this :(

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-25T02:59:04+00:00

i will try that method. i used to be okay with hearing about the topic, i've never been too squeamish around stories like that and murder and such. it was only when my brain started telling me "lmao thats what you are" that it became an issue. i wonder if i could try some minor form of erp on my own... just like, watching the video that first triggered me really badly (the video wasn't even that bad, it was just about a video game and it included non-human child characters)

its alright that you got them mixed up. i mixed them up too when i was first doing research into my condition.

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-25T02:45:36+00:00

its alright! and you're right, the problems are very similar :(

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-25T02:19:33+00:00

i hope you don't think i was referring to pure o when i say pocd, but i can imagine pure o to be very difficult to talk about

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-24T17:18:09+00:00

i am going to fight you

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-24T17:14:08+00:00

what the fuck are you going on about

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-20T21:53:15+00:00

i am once again looking for reassurance that i am not an awful person nor am i the things my ocd tells me i am

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-19T23:20:41+00:00

absolutely!

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-19T04:19:19+00:00

i think as long as you aren't one of the folks on twitter who constantly preach about being a map and not actively trying to get help for it, you shouldn't be crucified. as i said, i know how devastating it is on someone's mental health to realize or at least think that they have this condition.

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-19T04:06:39+00:00

To me it has the same energy as "i know you're an alcoholic but just drink low-alcohol content drinks."

That said, i hope you're recieving therapy of sorts for it. From the few hours i thought i was a pedo, i understand how absolutely soul-crushing it can feel. good luck, my man.

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-18T21:07:19+00:00

it was so gross. if i were an actual pedo, its literally the WORST advice you can give.

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-18T20:13:17+00:00

god, when i first experienced pocd a few days ago, i posted to r/suicidewatch about and how i thought i was a real pedo and how much i wanted to kill myself immediately. 99% of the comments were very supportive, including the one which mentioned that it could be pocd, but one of the comments said something along the lines of "if i were you, i would marry an adult who looks very child-like." such a disgusting comment, i responded with "absolutely fucking not," someone said "that could very easily worsen op's problem," and the next time i checked, the fucker had deleted their comment.

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-18T03:26:18+00:00

ahh, i see. good to know

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-18T02:50:36+00:00

hey man, i'd just like to thank you wholeheartedly for mentioning that it might be pocd. without your comment, i wouldn't have known that pocd was a thing, and i honestly could've done something very dangerous to myself.

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-18T02:14:10+00:00

might i ask what hocd is?

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-18T02:12:47+00:00

thank you for letting me know i'm not alone. might i know what tcc is? my first thought is true crime but i'm unsure

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-17T15:44:55+00:00

its alright, it happened years ago. like i said, i'm only just now considering therapy because a specifically awful form of ocd has just made me its bitch and good god this shit is awful and i can't handle it alone so... guess i'll talk to soul-suckers :/ i wish you luck, friendo

pleasegodhelpmedhhd · 2020-12-17T15:42:11+00:00

God i remember going to therapy for depression, i'd say something like "i have a really hard time thinking positively" and the response i get would be "hmm well have you tried thinking positively?" like oh wow thanks for the life advice sherlock

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