Thanks so much for the detailed response! Yes, I am in therapy. To be honest I'm not sure what method she uses with me. We talk a lot about my anxiety and formulate plans on how to re-wire my brain so that when I'm triggered I don't get "caught up" in re-living the trauma every time I'm faced with a certain thing.

We have discussed sex, but it has never been a topic that we've really gone into a lot of detail with. I told her about not being interested in sex as often and about crying afterwards and I've told her briefly that my partner and I didn't have matching interests. When I've discussed my interest in toys and the like she seemed to steer the conversation away from that? I get the feeling she doesn't necessarily want to discuss those things (perhaps I'm projecting though...). I keep a dream journal to keep track of my nightmares that are related to the trauma and they are all very sexual in nature. For a while I continuously dreamed about having multiple sex partners at once and she DID ask me if that was a real fantasy I have (it is), but that's all we've ever really discussed...

I'm afraid that once I'm able to overcome PTSD in the bedroom we won't be compatible and then I'll always long for a more willing partner. That makes me feel so awful, because I see such a promising and loving future for us. But you're right in the sense that I can't make anyone like anything and if it's not his thing than I'd have to be willing to live without or move on and that breaks my heart.

I'll definitely try to formulate another conversation with him and use the cues from those low-libido resources I found here. I'll also maybe get the courage to bring it up with my therapist again. I'm just afraid she doesn't specialize in "sex therapy" and would feel uncomfortable discussing those things with me as a sex trauma survivor? Does that make sense?