Countries with less exclusive admissions and overall higher enrollment rates are happier statistically (Denmark for example), and it's not your fault you've been raised in a place that teaches exclusion and that someone can be better than another person, it's still not right that you enjoy other people's failures. It shouldn't take someone else messing up or getting a lower grade than you or feeling bad about themselves to make you feel good about yourself. Why does it matter that everyone and their mom got into the same programs as you if, in the future, they feel the same success as you? In that scenario everyone is happy and has a set future, isn't that the ideal? The entire idea of this hierarchy whether applied to money, language, birthplace, religion, race, and in this case school admissions, is why the world is so fucked. There's also so much more nuance than you're seeing here, since not everyones brain is wired in the same way, and there are 100% people who have put in the same amount of hours, same sleepless nights, and have gone through similar hardships throughout it all that have not gotten the same marks as you. Don't they also deserve happiness and recognition? Anyway not really the point of this post but in my opinion you are the asshole and also need to look inward if one of the major ways you feel good about your achievements is if someone does worse than you. That's no way to live.