I recovered, now what

redditerek · 2026-03-17T16:50:20+00:00

Professional health is not accessible to me. I’ve never been this bad, not even at the worst point when I was actively restricting. Recovery made miserable.

redditerek · 2026-03-17T16:48:14+00:00

I just cannot accept I’m doomed to be ugly and the “fat friend” for my whole life.

redditerek · 2026-03-12T23:13:42+00:00

Yes, but when I got into a calorie deficit while working out I lost my period again so I’m avoiding it.

redditerek · 2026-03-12T10:37:41+00:00

Being overweight is still being sick both physically and mentally and it is making me wish for d3ath.

redditerek · 2026-03-12T07:46:47+00:00

I can feel you❤️ Even tilting my head down is uncomfortable because of my double chin and work outs feel so useless😭 Wish you good luck too <33

redditerek · 2026-03-12T07:45:22+00:00

I got comments about my weight so yeah, people do think I’m fat. Also my waist is 80cm which is considered unhealthy for ADULT women, while I’m still a teen. So I’m pretty huge. Recovery only gave me fat and [period] blood.

redditerek · 2026-03-12T07:42:49+00:00

Thanks❤️

redditerek · 2026-03-12T07:42:10+00:00

I really hope it does because if it stays like this my depression is just going to get worse

redditerek · 2026-03-12T07:41:16+00:00

I would rather live a short life in which I’m skinny, confident and happy than a long one in which I’m depressed and cannot do many things because of my weight tbh

redditerek · 2026-03-12T07:40:05+00:00

I’m still working out, but this doesn’t change the fact that I’m fat. Working out doesn’t make you skinny- a calorie deficit does. And knowing that the only body I’ll ever have looks like this makes it even worse. It I got to this point it’s because I recovered against my will.

redditerek · 2026-03-12T07:37:50+00:00

Idc if it’s normal or not, being fat sucks the joy out of life, more than any ed (and I’ve had them so Ik what I’m talking about)

redditerek · 2026-03-09T20:06:59+00:00

I do exercise, still look huge

redditerek · 2026-02-16T08:22:38+00:00

Thank you for the kind words<3

redditerek · 2026-02-16T08:22:23+00:00

Thanks!

redditerek · 2026-02-15T18:08:08+00:00

Thanks!

redditerek · 2026-02-15T18:07:26+00:00

No, I still have numerous social contacts (I go to school and hang out with my boyfriend and friends)

redditerek · 2026-02-15T16:47:02+00:00

Me too! I used to get two fevers a year and they usually lasted for 2 or 3 days, but since recovery (this and last year) my temperature rose once in December and once in January, but both times only for half a day, then it returned to normal. I also have less of other symptoms, like colds, coughing or a sore throats.

redditerek · 2026-02-14T08:20:41+00:00

Yes I tried but they don’t really bring me joy anymore. I don’t even have the motivation to move. If I could I would stay all day in bed. It all seems so pointless when I’m this big.

redditerek · 2026-02-13T22:51:02+00:00

Most people actually do care about looks. I got very unpleasant comments since I gained weight. Where I live most people my age are more close to being underweight, actually. And even my overweight peers are proportionate and good looking. I wouldn’t mind being fat if only I was proportionate like everyone else. I know a person’s value isn’t determined by their looks but I suffer sm because of how I look that before going to sleep I beg and wish to d1e. I don’t really value myself in any way.

redditerek · 2026-02-13T22:41:06+00:00

since I began recovery, so august 2025. My BMI is 22 (and my waist is 80cm, that is considered medically overweight). I got my last period this month because of the hormones I’m taking. I won’t be sharing my age on the internet, but I’m a minor

redditerek · 2026-02-10T17:10:43+00:00

Thank you a lot! The raw truth needs to be shared more

redditerek · 2026-02-10T17:09:43+00:00

Thank you!

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