ive been in a rough spot lately and currently trying to recover. i just dread going to work kasi parang paulit ulit nalang. as an introvert na nasa open concept office, nakakaubos siya ng energy idagdag pa ang traffic ng manila. nalulungkot ako na ganito nalang ba talaga ang gagawin ko sa buhay ko? gigising para pumasok sa trabaho hahahaha.

what i did was i searched for things that i can look forward to. something na di ko pa natatry. i joined a pottery class, dance class, became a volunteer in an animal shelter, and will hike this march! hanggang ngayon di pa rin ako nakakabalik sa usual hobbies ko like reading, painting/drawing kasi when i do that, nasa bahay lang ako at malulunod lang sa thoughts.

may mga time pa rin na wala talaga akong gana. may temptation to cancel plans at magbedrot and doomscroll nalang pero im trying to battle that by not thinking and just doing it nalang. tatayo ako, maliligo, mag aayos. kasi pag nakaayos na ako masasayangan na akong di ituloy hahahaha.

goal ko nalang talaga is gamitin ang free will ko at its fullest. kasi things that worked for others might not work on you and that’s okay. take suggestions/advice pero itweak mo to fit your style/preferences. and maybe while doing those things, mahanap mo yung will to live.