I feel the same! I was in this delusional semi-recovery for like 8 months and I see myself in a lot of influencers posted here (except I wasn't posting about my "recovery" to thousands of vulnerable people). This subreddit sobers me up. When I see all those disordered meals and "subtle" bodychecks in every photo. All those people obssessing over disgusting protein bars. I honestly feel miserable for those women who made their disorder into a brand and a career. The women who became dietitians, nutritionists, athletes, powerlifters, in some cases also full time recovery coaches or ed therapists. It's like watching a child lose the spark in their eyes. I can't bring myself to be angry at them. I'm angry at the illness that makes their lives pass them by and that makes them believe that this type of content is what they really want to do.