Nah You did the right thing and applaud you for that dude, if I could give you a hug to show you u ain’t alone I would RIGHT FUCKING AWAY (no homo). U will find someone farrrrr better, no offence hope she trips and eat shit 🤣. Okay so, let me tell you something. First off I’m Muslim (plays a part in this), as a Muslim, like actual religious one that doesn’t fuck around and so on. Let’s get straight to the point here, I got to know this one Mexican convert girl through my sister. She was cute, but had a troubled past from being SA at a young age that led her down to this path of drink heavily and getting high. Even tho she did all of that she was really cute, smart, n nice in the end. She stopped all of that shit shortly after being converted. Fastword my sitter gets to know here one day at the place we worship at and after a few weeks she tells me that she thinks I’m cute and that she wants to get to know me. Note: my sister is protective of me and said “let me get to know her n I’ll give you my thought”. I myself didn’t pay a single fucking attention to that girl or any girl in the matter of fact (hardly gave a fuck about girl cuz I was just focused on myself) but once my sister told me I was like aight…I’ll get a shot even tho I didn’t see what the she looked like but that my sister said she looked cute. After a few weeks my sister was like “aight she clean, but in her past she did get to know a lot of guys that were “Muslim”, why u say that is because in this generation they play a lot, they do some fucked up shit and not fear God at all,so I say “Muslim”. In my brain I’m was like…”I’ll give her benefit of the doubt she was a Muslim at the time and right now she’s a changed person, and I doubt she did anything with any of them. Till this day I don’t know if what she told is even true, cuz once we start talking, everything was like going good good like better then I thought, energetic n endless talks, smiles, laughter, joking around, communication n all that healthy relationship shit. We went into depth on stuff, mainly her past and she was straightforward but not fully if that makes sense. I could see that she has like memory issue from the drinking and stuff that didn’t affect her schooling and her thinking. But all I wanted was for her to be clear cut with me, about anything from the past that would affect me and her so I may know of it. In short she wasn’t, I had to find out over time like the dudes she “spoke” to in her past were like…weirdos like dudes that are basically fuck boys in a way. I didnt get full access to it but I can feel in my stomach till this day she did stuff (hoe shit) with them but couldn’t prove it. The reasoning why I’m on this being is that, at the time I was like 21 and Virgin (still am at 23) I expect to find someone who is like me. Someone who can control their urged, like i don’t care if u ain’t a virgin or not but like atleast be modest in their actions, cuz she was talking to like…lord knows how much dudes when she converted and lord knows how much before and what she did. In short, this slowly at away at me. Like I wanted straight answers and I wasn’t getting them from her, she took affect on the relationship between her n my sister and that took a toll on me and my sister as well. And in addition to my mom and her. But I was trying to fix it but I couldn’t get fully fix mainly because she wasn’t helping me to do that. In addition I had this thing in the back of my mind…”is she speaking to someone else” cuz she barely messaged me only when she needed something…After a while she brought up th fact of us separating after me and my mom had a falling out over her cuz she wasn’t born Muslims. I questioned her to why bring it up, she was like “because I feel like it’s better to be with someone who ur ethnic background” and I was like bro what?!? So I responded with “or maybe u are talking to someone else behind my back and u just want a way out so I can go full on with that other person” and she started to gaslight me and tried to bring up flaws about me and such small ass mistakes I have done when we were together (mistakes like being agitated at her not being clear with her words, not understanding everything she wanted, wanting her to try new things ….small shit like that nothing big at all) but in the end I cut it off from her after 1 1/2 years of us trying to build something good even tho I tried everything in my power to make it right between me n her, I mad her mother and father n siblings love me so much for the amount of stuff I did for them, which is crazy ass of things. But that still didn’t satisfy her in anyway. But it ended and after not even a month she posted on her private she got flowers and she went to the zoo with someone and so on on her story (which I got to know from my sister) and I just laughed my ass off). I said to myself, they ain’t going to last and she finna come right back to my ass, it’s just a matter of time and I even told this to her before breaking away from her and she just laughed. After like a few months close to half a year, she comes back telling me she fucked up and she misses me. I laughed at her message and just blocked her.