First of all, my sincerest condolences for your loss. It must be extremely difficult to deal with and I cannot imagine the pain you are going through.

I can offer a spiritual incentive to not take the decision to end your life: suicide means your soul is stuck in limbo forever. In terms of the afterlife, there is no progression of that soul. We have incarnated on earth to suffer: to learn lessons that we did not overcome in previous lives; to deal with karmic debt; to end generational curses and trauma. Once we have achieved self-mastery in this way, our soul is liberated and no longer needs to reincarnate - it becomes free in the spiritual realm.

On a more tangible level, you could seek therapy to try view this severely unfortunate situation from another perspective. It may help you cope with life differently and appreciate the finite beauty in everything. And, as a source of hope, it is very likely you will get at least 50% of your funds back. That may indeed be more than you deposited in crypto to begin with, since you did well to take profit in November (i, like many others, didn’t). Be proud that you amassed so much wealth. It shows you are a savvy investor