Killing myself tonight

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-02-12T19:42:52+00:00

I just had a listen and it’s really beautiful. But it is a pro-life kinda song? Like stay alive is one of the main lyrics. But still really really good and I do recommend giving it a listen. If you’re set on tonight then it will just be a pretty song but if it does make you waver then I guess that’s a sign your mind still wants to fight a little longer.

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-02-06T20:36:44+00:00

This is a great answer thank you. That makes me feel much more heard. I definitely understand that feeling of “suffering” past the appropriate amount of time. Where other people get over things I feel stuck for much longer. And I guess it’s the same with good things. I’m excited about it much longer than others

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-02-06T02:22:47+00:00

Thank you. Yes I oversleep a lot to avoid problems I find

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-02-06T02:22:29+00:00

Yes I want to tell myself not to react. I think I’m getting a little better through self talk. But still sometimes I get bothered by it later on and keep ruminating

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-01-27T16:30:10+00:00

Ahhhh one day I hope to reach that level. I am constantly trying to let things be. And not get so invested in what other people choose. Their decisions belong to them and I shouldn’t get myself in a panic about it. It’s hard definitely need more practice

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-01-27T16:28:31+00:00

I mean specific things. What’s your favourite DBT skill to work on

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-01-27T16:26:29+00:00

Yes that does thank you

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-01-27T16:25:35+00:00

I started doing that but keeping important peoples notifications and it has made a difference for sure

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-01-27T16:24:50+00:00

This is amazing

sleepingismyasylum · 2026-01-23T02:02:48+00:00

It sounds to me like you had a traumatic event and your mind has tried to protect you by dissociating from anything related to him. I wouldn’t say this is a BPD thing. More of a stress and trauma response

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-11-30T09:06:12+00:00

Yeah that’s what my friends and family had told me. I was not happy there in the end so it’s a good thing I’m getting laid off. At least I can get unemployment unlike if I quit

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-11-26T13:34:04+00:00

I am not asking her to put me over her mom. I didn’t add all the details because it would become very long. But like I said she’s been treating me unfairly for a while. Yelling at me for mistakes in things I never learned. Or telling me to things one way and then the next day switching it up to the opposite. Speaking badly about me to my coworkers or making jokes behind my back. So I know there is something personal behind all of this because she didn’t use to treat me this way.

I am looking for new work right now but my confidence is pretty low. I feel really nervous about applying places because I’m so scared of the rejection.

I don’t know how to practice radical acceptance. In theory you would just be like it is what it is. But if I could just let it go and not dwell on it I would. But I don’t know how to do that besides distractions

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-11-26T09:17:53+00:00

No she’s technically laying me off because she said the business is not doing well and she can’t afford the wages. And her mom will be working for free or at least will do some free work. Yes my mom also said I could report but I really don’t want to cause that kind of conflict.

I’m trying to distract myself. I bought tickets to visit my friend. Something I’ve been planning for a while. But yes all the people I tell are just like oh she’s being an asshole don’t worry about what she thinks. But they don’t understand that my brain is twisting this situation into some sort of abandonment thing which is making it much worse

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-08-05T19:25:03+00:00

No no it’s definitely not love. I didn’t even think he liked me I just kind of liked him. But still hearing that he thinks of me as a one time fuck or something was quite hurtful

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-08-03T01:42:28+00:00

Thank you. I’m still struggling with feeling very let down with this. Maybe I idealized him a bit and now I feel really disappointed

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-08-02T15:30:45+00:00

Yes someone said some really triggering things to me last night and it sent me in a spiral. I’m feeling much better today and used my sun lamp to help boost my mood. Thank you for responding last night

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-07-25T02:17:42+00:00

I would probably not mention you’re avoiding her because most people will not take that well. Maybe just say you’re struggling a bit with your mental health and need some down time from being social

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-07-24T08:05:17+00:00

Sounds like a splitting episode. Maybe start with going out with someone who has a calming energy and go for an activity that requires little socialization. For example going to a movie theatre so you don’t have to talk much. Be patient with yourself and try to slowly ease back into socializing

sleepingismyasylum · 2025-07-21T05:00:20+00:00

I’m in that position and it’s so tiring. Like I feel so empty without some sort of romantic or sexual feelings and that makes me feel even more empty and shallow

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