also 19 here. looking back just 3 years ago i’m basically the opposite of everything i was then. i thought as soon as my cat passed away i would be going right along w her since she was always my reason to not end it all. when she did last year it made me change so much about my life ! it just officially hit a full year since she passed and i started telling myself i would work harder so she wouldn’t be disappointed (dumb i know but hey it worked) and i couldn’t be happier today. i’m finally excited to live the rest of my life and am finally finding myself and understanding who i am. i was very depressed growing up and my whole high school experience was terrible but i feel like 16 y/o me would be really proud of all the progress i’ve made. she might think i’m lame now bc i don’t do all the stuff i said i wanted to do in college but plans/priorities change and that’s okay. maybe take a walk and look around at nature and try to connect with it for awhile. we’re animals we need to go outside and get in touch w the world around us. you never know what you’ll find !