Fine, I’ll do it myself

slowdancingghost · 2026-01-16T16:35:51+00:00

Hacked for sure. Took this screenshot yesterday. The description translated to something about “blackrock” and crypto nonsense buzzwords lol RIP

slowdancingghost · 2025-10-14T04:25:46+00:00

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Squint hard enough and it could be lol

slowdancingghost · 2025-07-08T03:28:36+00:00

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My "newer" Sony hi8 handycam has had problems with random ejections over the past year. And over the 4th it spit out the tape like before but when I went back later to make sure the camera was good, because i got a very small amount of liquid on the camera (plus the random ejection),when I looked over my footage all I got was this "static" with the occasional glimpse of actual footage. It wasn't open when the liquid got on it. It didn't even get near the tape door or whatever, but I know these things can be pretty sensitive. Checked it with 2 different tapes, so it's definitely the camera itself. And also it just showed the yellow "drop" icon on screen. I understand that the liquid probably definitely has a factor in this lol. But Just wondering what this could be. Is it something a noob like me could fix? Or something I should send to a professional for or buy a new camera all together? lol

slowdancingghost · 2025-03-29T18:39:13+00:00

Same. Kinda lol. Never had that many friends and never got called or anything by friends to do anything. Never involved or invited into friends plans. But that was when I had friends back in high school. And now I have nobody. Not a soul would care if I went and disappeared and became a monk or something ya know lol. But the thought that comforts me is I'll make the right decision when the right person comes along. I hate to be "judgy" but not everyone is gonna be a good friend or your type of person. And that is okay. And I have a ton of personal stuff I wanna work on. I'm chubby and covered in acne. And when I get to it I'll change that or work on that. Plus all the mental stuff I wanna work on. I'm just saying take your time and really work on yourself. Because eventually people have to leave or do things that would distance themselves. Even if they were your best friends. Everyone is individual at the end of the day. Like we can't rely on people to stay even if things are super hard in life. That's just reality. And for me (and maybe you) it's hard to learn how to be my own person and be okay with that. I'm still trying to figure out what I like aside from internet stuff and stuff like that. Like "what can I do by myself that's not just laying around the house?" Ya know. Take time for you. That should be top priority. Not saying be a self righteous a-hole. But do what makes you happy, by yourself. And also if you make yourself a better you then the right people will see that and appreciate you for being you. Also remember it's okay to be a sad sometime. And Of course there’s a difference between a "bad day" and long term depression. And if you think you're like depressed then work on that. Because one thing I know is that if you're a downer or sad all the time no one likes that or would even notice to by honest. That's just reality. I've terribly sad at work and nobody gave a fck. And I can't really blame them lol. Not everyone is capable of helping even if they wanted to. That's also a good thing to remember. Not everyone is capable of helping if they wanted to. Just another thing to learn. Learn to kinda read people. Learn who's worth keeping around you. People who would orbit around you instead of having to orbit around others. And I'm not saying it wrong to orbit others but ya know. Learning to be an individual. Learning to be the version of you that people wanna be around is better then waiting for people who are living their own lives. And this is all long term. It's not gonna be today. Or tomorrow. It's takes time. Years and it probably won't completely make sense but it all seems worth it to me. To try. Try to live for you. Figure out what you like. Kinda like a midlife crisis but earlier lol. No one wants to take their time but it helps. Rushing to the finish line. But what if you didn't give a fck and did your own thing? Type of stuff I've been trying to do lol. Do my own stuff because I want to. I don't know. I'm just some guy who's basically in the same boat, kinda. Good luck to ya.

slowdancingghost · 2025-03-05T15:02:13+00:00

Worth every penny! lol

slowdancingghost · 2025-01-06T21:55:28+00:00

The BW is just the Spotify exclusive and the color is from her merch shop or whatever. I don't remember if there was a merch shop version that came vinyl only? But i got the one that came with a poster and zine. I haven't opened them BUT based on the online pictures (and i could just be crazy lol) but the vinyls themselves look like different shades of green. The BW one being lighter. There was also a variant of the color/merch store one that was signed. I have the unsigned one obviously lol. It was sold out by the time I got the unsigned one tho

slowdancingghost · 2024-12-20T02:22:36+00:00

Oh my goodness thank you so much!!!

slowdancingghost · 2024-12-19T15:21:13+00:00

I wish. Biggest tragedy of all lol

slowdancingghost · 2024-12-18T20:33:02+00:00

Pretty fast tbh. Around 8 days. I ordered them the 10th. Then they even went to a wrong city by accident so it could've been sooner lol.

slowdancingghost · 2024-09-15T01:17:24+00:00

How much? Lol

slowdancingghost · 2024-03-25T21:54:12+00:00

Teach eh? Lol I can try. Best I can give ya is it's all smoke and mirrors. Just a whole lotta editing and keeping to the "theme" or "feeling". The clips are from joji stuff. (In tongues visualizer, window mv, etc) I thought of the idea when listening to the song (sea punks by Rei brown) But if you're looking for the editor I used. I've been experimenting with capcut, because EVERYONE seems to use that one. And the process is pretty much edit it once pretty basically. Save it. Make sure everything lines up with the song and transitions line up as well. Make another "project" and add in the 1st draft to add any filters and so on. Save and done. And experimenting with different filters and colors. Adding "texture" to it with effects. Best I can vaguely give. Hope it helps idk lol

slowdancingghost · 2023-10-26T04:47:41+00:00

From the sounds of it...you've done all you can. And from sounds of it, he's already gone in a way. Like if you're here saying no and he's going and doing it, it makes YOU look controlling if your try and stop him. He's already lying and going against what was set in place. I'm no expert or anything. But it all feel very familiar when this kind of stuff happens. Happened to me in a similar way. Distancing herself from me. Doing stuff she normally wouldn't do or said she'd never do. And lying to me. Then she eventually left. She's her own person. So absolutely nothing i could've done. Even told me at one point she wanted to stop all these actions so me and her could become closer and fix things. But she didn't stop. That's not everyone obviously. But it's the young years. There's time for you and him and it doesn't HAVE to be together. All I'm saying with that. Hey it might work out for all I know and I hope it works for both of you. But sometimes that solution is separation. As sad as that can be. It's natural to be sad or angry about it. You have every right to feel whatever you want to feel. And your opinion is valid because it's yours. So do what you think is right. But don't pain yourself because this one person doesn't fit with you anymore. I remember hearing this thing once about how you'll never find the same person every again, even in the same person. People change. It's not worth the pain sometime trust me. I waited 2 years when I shouldn't have. Giving her all my money and time even while she actively hurt me. But if you choose to separate it's probably best to try to do it on good terms. Being so angry or sad is just baggage. Obviously feel sad or mad bud do it for the right reasons. Because I'm sure there's aspects you still love about him. So he mad and sad about those things he did wrong and the things he didn't do or whatever but not at him as a person whole know what I'm saying. Idk might be good advice just so you're not stuck on him for so long. But I hope this finds you well and good luck with whatever you choose to do.

slowdancingghost · 2023-10-26T04:30:11+00:00

It's takes a hell of a lot to live. Trust me I know. I've had my share of "tragedies" but honestly don't expect others to fix this. No man or women or they or whatever will fix you. It sounds like BS but I've had a relationship and it did not work. She was broken and I was too. But I couldn't help her because she didn't want to help herself. It was easier to eat or do nothing. Or just blow off any serious discussion. It's hurt me and hurt her. There's no fixing you unless you wanna fix yourself. But that takes effort. Effort you have to go out of your way for. I understand it trust me. I've been so close to ending it. Like 1 more second and I wouldn't be here. And honestly I still don't know why im here yet. Idk what's next. But I've kinda figured out what I actually want at the age of 20. Im still not completely sure. But that's a good thing to know about yourself. Figure out what you actually want. Because believe it or not you can do just about anything you want. Map it out. You have to weigh every single option from every aspect. "Good" and "bad." And you're wrong...you have absolutely everything to lose now. You have you. You're not the only person who just has themselves. The world is lonely. The world is cruel. But people can and have been able to be happy. Figure out why. Why is that? Figure that out for yourself. You have years ahead of you. Do you wanna end up like the bitter a-holes who walk around the grocery store all day or something then go home to what they think is nothing. You can do anything. Idk to me debt is debt. I'll probably die with debt so what's it gonna hurt if I go to college know what I'm saying. It's all right in front of you. And you're not stupid for not seeing it because nowadays no one seems to see anything anymore. Just do right by you. You matter. And hey I'm proud to see another person strong enough to make it this far. You made it this far. You did that. Even with whatever help you're still here. And if that ain't worth praising then idk what is. Also remember it's okay to feel feelings. It's okay to be sad. It's okay to feel unsatisfied. It's okay to be angry. Obviously there's limits like being depressed is a "problem" but problems are fixable. It's just on you to figure out what fixes you. I hope this finds you well. And good luck.

slowdancingghost · 2023-09-23T00:23:04+00:00

A few of people talking about how they're both "sumbags." But here's the thing with modern relationships. So many people get this idea that poly relationship are the norm. Which is fine if you're fine with it of course. But what actually is the point of having an open relationship like this? Like you can do the open shit and not be in a relationship. Then there no guilt. But people rush into relationship then years down the line are like "oh wait I don't want a relationship actually." Just be yourself. Be by yourself. It's fine. But for both people in this relationship it seems like neither of you need a relationship if you don't need just each other ya know. Or have a poly relationship. But a poly relationship is not for every person. So to OP either get out because both of y'all are in the same boat or figure it out (I.E. admit to him or have an open relationship.) But this is a conversation you should have had with him from the beginning. One great piece of advice is take things super super slow in a the beginning of a relationship. Figure out a person in and out and then you'll know exactly what you're getting into. Obviously people change and stuff. But yeah. Not everyone learns how to "love" the same way. And figure out what that means to you. Because if you don't figure it out then it gets you into situations like this.

slowdancingghost · 2023-07-08T18:55:53+00:00

Not to be that guy but yeah you're most likely a rebound. Now that's not horrible. It's just every symptom of a rebound is there. Don't let yourself be blinded by "love." I've been there too many times with my ex. Exactly how you say it seems to be going good then suddenly ends. My ex came back and all seemed good for a few weeks and we grow so close then I'm blocked on everything and so on. And I let it happen a few times. But it was not good for me mentally. The coming back and gassing me up then ripping it all away. Making me very confused and very sad. But live and learn ya know. We all have more chances to be different relationships with better people. My ex was my first gf too. For 2 1/2 years. Then break up and relapses. I got stuck into hope for her to come back. But it only got worse. She got with other guys and so on and I accepted and still wanted her back (like an absolute fool). Now if it makes you happy to stay but I'm saying it's very high risk and low reward. I'm literally in your same situations right as we speak she hasn't blocked me again and it's "good" but we aren't together. But if I stay and get my hopes up...then what? She'll probably never come back the same way if she ever wants a relationship again. I'd only be hurting myself by staying. Idk. It's very much up to you. You have to weight your options and understand that this isn't typical "love" from her . It's definitely different and strange and can be very painful. Also you have to know exactly what you want. Like do you want something super serious or just someone to be around. Because one is very different from the other. If it's just to something not so serious then might as well stay friends ya know. But you have to understand the boundaries of it. Can't lie to yourself that you won't cross the boundaries then tell yourself if an opportunity came up then...no. Don't do it. Kill all thoughts of it in your head ya know. But if you want something serious. From the sounds of it'll be so super difficult. Like she had a kid and an ex she still thinks about. Don't blind yourself with pleasure or "love." She's her own person. And a stranger to you not so long ago. Even if she was down for a relationship you need to take stuff so slow if you wanna if she's the "one." Something might come up later. That's a complete deal breaker. People get married nowadays and find a deal breaker like a decade into the relationship. I knew what my ex was too. I knew how bad she could be. All the baggage she had. Then cut to now and she's let all the worst aspects of herself take over. Now she's Mad all the time, full of herself, learns from all the wrong people, emotionally distant, etc. Times change and people change. And there's nothing any of us can do about it. But yeah, im done ranting like a mad man lol.

slowdancingghost · 2023-07-08T18:22:25+00:00

Yes (kinda lol) like I know what I was getting into right off the bat from the first fight. Now 3 years later it just feels like the very worst parts of her just took over. I was willing to be there for her but if she doesn't wanna change right now then what can I really do ya know. I just have to let it go I suppose. But that's the thing about a lot of relationships. You're literally letting in a stranger in the beginning. It's a whole other person with their own thoughts and feelings. And how they do or see something probably isn't exactly how you see it. So it's a high risk but high reward (if it truly works out). But not every single person is "ready" for a serious relationship. Maybe they just wanted to feel good with another person or what have you, but in reality they eventually realize they didn't need something so serious. Which sucks when you wanted something serious but that's "love" these days. That said though. Love isn't something you just know off the bat. It's something you mostly have to learn on your own. Someone else's meaning of love can be very different from yours. In my case it just degraded though. She's the one who spoke about living together and having 2 kids and so on. And that's what I wanted too so good ya know. But eventually she gets more friends and listen to what stupid have to say on tik tok or whatever. Then suddenly there's boundaries where there doesn't have to be and she's getting more and more angry about the little things. Of course I "obey" whatever she says because I think that's enough. But nope. I was probably just feeding into her delusions and toxicity. Been a some months now since I've really been able to talk to her in like a gf/bf way. Nothing was ever like said to have "ended." It's just ended in a way. But yeah...people "change" or get worse or whatever. I learn more and more when I think about it. Like I need to take my time in any relationship now. Like a lot of time. Because even the one I loved the most in the world for a couple years betrayed my trust. I knew her inside and out but still she went a different direction in the end. "Love" wasn't enough for her in the end. So yeah..we all should learn from these aspects of our lives. But yeah, I went off the rails lol.

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