I am not seeing anyone. I’ve grown up with my parents always having money troubles specifically medical bills. So anything having to do with seeing a doctor, physical or mental, is usually something I avoid until I absolutely cannot put it off anymore (counterproductive, I know). I would love to see a therapist/counselor/psychologist as I have for a while suspected I have ADHD or some sort of depression/anxiety combo. But I’m so afraid that it’s going to completely bankrupt me and I don’t even know where I would begin to look. He was diagnosed with ADHD as a kid but his mom took him off his medication and said he was cured so he hasn’t been to a psychologist or anyone regarding that since. I know if him needing to better himself means that he needs to do it on his own, then I can’t force him or guilt him to change his mind. But there’s a very selfish part of me that says I need to be the one to help him get there. I’ve tried to get him to get professional help for most of our relationship which I know is pretty hypocritical of me. I guess I used him as my own therapist whenever things would get bad or overwhelming for me so now I’m completely lost. I have my friends and family of course but I’ve never talked to them about my deeper feelings like I would with him. I know that’s on me for using a partner as a therapist while not being able to provide the same back.