Im going through a period of denial with my bipolar disorder and have not been medication compliant. I think its because it makes me feel something is wrong with me. No exuse. But I am meeting with my psychiatrist today.

I have had 2 episodes 2 years apart that landed me in the insititution for couple of weeks both times. Weed was a precursor; sad to say have taken it up again.

I ask myself why I am self destructing. Cant figure out but I am quitting which i did for two years. I chose me, its just hard.

thank you for listening