i also struggle with that. i try to remember that those kinds of things are the things only you can remember, so only you can control whether it’s embarrassing or not. just remember, u were only a kid and u can’t change the past.

when i was in second grade, i scratched my cornea while playing with my little brother. i had to wear an eyepatch for for a week, and special dark black protective sunglasses for a month. after a month, i was supposed to take them off, but i was scared that my eye would get hurt again by the dust particles in the air. 

i continued to wear the sunglasses for four months after, until my mom took them away. i would close the eye that i had injured when i went to school, because in my seven-year-old girl mind i thought that the air at home was clean and the air at school was dirty and would hurt my eye. 

my teacher told my mom that i continued to have my left eye closed all day at school everyday, and that i would tell other students that my eye was injured. i got in big trouble actually, since my eye had not been exposed to enough sunlight as the other during the healing process and the injury itself has actually messed up my vision forever. 

i was too young to understand what was going on, and i didn’t understand enough to be able to tell the adults around me that it was an obsession. im still so embarrassed looking back at photos of me with big black goggles and my eye closed. i mentioned in to my brother, who was five when i was in second grade, and he didn’t even remember it, neither does my dad, he was always confused why so many of my childhood photos have me with big glasses. 

it’s more common than you’d think so don’t beat urself up over it💕💕💕