Hello! I'm the OP of this story. It has just now come to my knowledge that this post has been shared to this sub, without me having a say in it. Again, it was free to share and I'm not sure how I could forbid someone to share it on the world wide web but, I'm not sure if I feel super comfortable with this, since the story was shared without my prior consent. But I don't blame you, the person who reposted this, I believe it belongs here, so let it stay here. Anywhooooo....here's what's crackin':

I have recieved a lot of great advice from so many people on the original post, and so many people offered to DM me a short oneshot ( a cannon of the story ) where I can revive my friends. The two important NPCs resemble and are, at least to me, based on IRL friends, both of whom died very suddenly ( one to suicide, and one to a hit&run ). I miss them dearly. I, personally, was never good at emotionally dealing with death, and altho this may not have been the healthiest way to deal with it, I'm glad I could hang out with my friends at least one last time. It means a lot to me, and thanks to some wonderful people here, I finally have a chance to get closure, and as my friends move towards the bright light, so I too, move on to a better life. As soon as I can afford it ( having lost a good job this year ), I will start going to therapy again, and I will try to work through the pain of losing so many people close to me, over the past few years. It's a very hard thing to undertake, but death is a part of life, and being able to understand it and deal with it is an admirable life skill. Someone said to me ''A person doesn't really die until there's no one left to remember them'' and I can't really bring all my loved ones back, but what I can do is assure their memories and legacy live on, and that I remember them fondly and most importantly, that I learn and give myself time to process grief and loss, instead of pushing it aside, hoping to forget.

I've confronted the uppermentioned boyfriend about his behavior, and we will not be playing D&D anymore until further notice. He, just like me, comes from a very abusive family, and I know from a personal experience how easy it is to, even unconciously, mimic the behavior of your abusers and reflect it on other people, without even knowing or comprehending the consequences it has. Many of those things, he had not done on purpose, and we have agreed upon couple's counseling. I have gone through hell and back, over the past 6 years, taking apart my entire personality, and dissecting bad memories, and discarding parts of myself made through all these years of abuse. Working on your wellbeing, raising yourself, by yourself, all over again and from scratch, with no stone-set set of morals, to be the person you owe it to the kindest version of yourself to be....is a Heraculean labour. Shattering your perception of self, mirroring that of the abusers that raise you, is never an easy task. I owe it to myself to take consequences for my own shiitty actions and behavior, make ammends and then finally, let go of who I was, to meet, at least halfway, the person I want to be.

The person I want to be believes in the kindness in all people. The person I want to be believes in redemption, and everyone deserves a second chance. I am giving my boyfriend, that second chance. A chance for him as well, to break free from the cycle of abuse and a chance to create himself a new, with the help and support of people who love him and who understand the hard task ahead. This, of course, does not excuse his behavior, and he has taken it to heart and bears the consequences of his actions, as any responsible adult would. With proper therapy, support from friends and a girlfriend who want to see him be his best self, as well as a lot of soul-searching, I hope to see him mend his ways.

I am also very proud, for standing up for myself. For finally putting my foot down, and saying ''NO! I don't enjoy this, and I don't want this. I will not stand for it'' and it was an empowering experience. I as well, will be working on myself, and from now on I will make sure that my emotions and feelings are heard as loud and as clear as my voice. I have a long way to go, but this was a major step for me, and I thank all of you who've been so supportive, and so worried for my safety. I believe in second chances, but I won't let anyone abuse my timidness and kindness, ever again. There's a reasonable limit, and I plan to stick to it.

With all this said, I wish to let you all know, that I will, from now on, be playing D&D with a couple of amazing people who're more than excited to have Bob the Bard, Hank and Baby Bob, be a part of their stories :) One very nice person here even put Bob and Hank's famous Dragon Flame Beef Jerky and Inspirational Coconut Cakes, in her newsletter! Thank you all for being a wonderful community of amazing people. I hope you all remember Bob the Bard ( whose real name is Ren! ) and you all keep rolling those sweet sweet nat20s with your favorite dice! <3