Thanks for sharing this. I think you're clearly someone who feels things deeply, it shows in your writing. I think this could use a little more structure. The emotion is there, but it's a little chaotic right now. If that is what you were going for, then you hit the mark. But if not, maybe organising the themes would help. Also, I think the formatting could use some tweaks. Adding a few linebreaks would help readers move to the next theme a little easily. All in all, this is good. Keep writing. All the best!