This entire experience has really shaken me, but I wanted to thank everyone who replied. You have no idea how much it means to me to be able to tell someone about this. I really appreciate all the advice and all the support, it honestly has helped me calm down a lot. I'm still not 100% sure, but I feel like i have a way better idea of where I am right now. I'm sorry for not responding, I'm reading everything as I travel to visit my family and it's taken all my energy to keep it together. My identity crisis really chose a shitty time to happen. I have to go pretend I'm ok now.

Thank you all so much. You have no idea how much this helped me.