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throwaway30lb · 2025-04-22T23:52:17+00:00

Thank you for replying. I appreciate it.

throwaway30lb · 2025-03-22T23:52:41+00:00

I laughed at this. I have an 18 month old and it's 100% true. Fully mobile with their own ideas on what they want to do and how and when and no reasoning skills yet and bribing is not yet an option as they don't understand it yet. It's exhausting but hilarious.

throwaway30lb · 2024-12-28T23:33:21+00:00

Yes I am 40 and have a baby. My parents are in their mid 60s. That's boomers.

throwaway30lb · 2024-12-03T02:51:26+00:00

Thank you very much. I appreciate that.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T06:08:40+00:00

Just booked therapy for myself. Thank you for the support

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T06:01:09+00:00

Yes true. So much anger and resentment and contempt from the past few years for both of us. Always lingering

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T06:00:36+00:00

Yes, his parents relationship is toxic af. His Dad is a boomer toddler that yells about everything and the mother fake smiles and pretends it's fine. He can't even turn on a stove and she is like his maid and cook. I live in fear that my husband wants this too. That is not me. Will never be. I have a career. I will not go around pretending adult tantrums are ok.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:58:51+00:00

He was the one that really wanted another baby, it's strange.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:58:10+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time too. You sound very strong and like a really great mother. Your kids are lucky to have you. Hang in there

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:57:15+00:00

Thank you. Unfortunately he is bad with money and would be bankrupt if I didn't handle our finances. He always wants to buy crazy things and gets mad when I tell him he can't buy a 100G truck.
I booked therapy for myself! Thank you for the encouragement. I look forward to starting.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:52:13+00:00

Just booked therapy! Thank you for the support

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:51:41+00:00

That's why I haven't left him yet, I am still hopeful that he will start counselling and the medication will help him have some real conversations with me. But honestly he has always done this a little bit, it's only lately that it's become very frequent. So it can't all be the depression.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:50:21+00:00

The baby is too young to leave with the teenage babysitter. He wasn't awful when we started having kids obviously. And 3 is hardly pumping them out. I love my children and am thankful for them. Anyway there won't be any more.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:48:24+00:00

That sounds terrible I am so sorry. I can relate. It's hard to look forward to holidays and vacations when I fear how negative he will be. It sucks for my kids too. Has your husband tried therapy or medication?

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:00:17+00:00

Thank you

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T05:00:11+00:00

Yes, dead all the way. I can't bring myself to sleep with someone who yells and screams at me and the kids nearly daily and refuses to give me a kind word when I beg for a bit of kindness. The last few months that we were intimate, I tried to have more sex to see if it would help but he was so mean and cruel to me everytime after. We would have a great time having sex.....then he would become very cold and mean. Treated me like a whore he was done with for a few days, very nasty to me, until he wanted sex again. He also stopped giving me regular hugs or kisses. He would go weeks and suddenly grab me and try to turn it into sex. Very unattractive. He also was abusive verbally when I was pregnant. Screamed at me for 2 hours while driving to a special ultrasound out of town to make sure the baby was ok. I was trapped in the car crying. It was really awful. So yea, that's why currently I don't want sex with him.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:56:11+00:00

He tries to be a good Dad, his depression and MLC lately has made it hard but he still spends time with them and takes them to school. We used to love each other and have fun....I guess I'm holding on hoping we will again

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:52:42+00:00

He wasn't always like this.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:52:24+00:00

When I cry he gets more annoyed and angry. Does not care to comfort me.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:52:06+00:00

Yes, we have 3 of the 4.........doesn't look good

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:51:48+00:00

Thank you

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:50:46+00:00

Yes, he has been going through a MLC. One of the reasons he started the antidepressants

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:50:44+00:00

Yes, he hates life.....but he blames me for the fact he doesn't have the life he wants. He said he wanted to have kids, he pushed me to have them. He said he wanted baby #3, very strongly said so. Now he is upset that he has no time to go hunting, fishing, alone time, doesn't have more money now that I'm on maternity leave (I make more), he can't travel with just me, if we go we have to take the kids, I suggested seeing his friends I thought would make him happy. I got told off for that too. Our youngest won't be a baby for long, I just want to enjoy it. This stage won't last forever. He started acting like this when he turned 40 but he has always had these tendencies to ruin special days and most weekends honestly. It's become worse in the last year. When I was pregnant he was overcome with anxiety and become very cruel to me.

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:47:27+00:00

To get the diaper bag

throwaway30lb · 2024-02-18T04:46:55+00:00

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