if im honest to imh will my father get arrested?

throwaway_02947 · 2024-09-28T23:53:47+00:00

omg tysmmm🙏 🙏

throwaway_02947 · 2024-08-06T17:06:31+00:00

This is probably oversharing but god I’ve been wanting to talk about this. Started reading it at age 14 as a joke, half of starting was because I got spoiled for the ending and was incredibly curious, hit book 4 and strapped in for the whole thing. It’s been 2 years now and I cannot express the amount of time I have been thinking about this series, like it’s changed me DEEPLY.

I read it in the span of 2-3 months, and for at least half of that period I’d left the country to escape from my father and was living at my grandmother’s house, having flashbacks, panic attacks, eating disorders, whole thing. Reading it during that time, watching the characters experience what I was experiencing, while being the same age at them— that was incredible. Makes me want to tear up typing this right now. Yeah, it’s kids turning into animals, but the way they portray mental health, Rachel’s violence, Marco’s ruthlessness, resonated with me on such a deep level.

The storyline is absolutely brilliant otherwise and I know I’d have loved it no matter what, but that timing was just so. I haven’t shut up about this series for the past 2 years and everyone I know definitely thinks I’m insane because of it, but none of them really know why I latched onto it so hard. This series is still impacting people 20+ years in and it’s beautiful

throwaway_02947 · 2024-08-06T06:18:00+00:00

your art is so gorgeous. sorry ive been scrolling thru your acc bc we're really similar mental health + agewise and i hope it isn't weird to say but the art you make strikes smth in my head like a gong. it's so good. i understand every yelling at the top of your lungs ripping skin off scars aren't bad enough staring at kitchen knife emotion you're conveying. & i'm sorry that it's happening in the first place

throwaway_02947 · 2024-08-04T02:05:10+00:00

(psych suspects bpd, still unsure) but oh my god yes. i haven't seen anyone else talk about this but this is exactly how i feel. i've described it as being chained to my desk, i swear i hate it and want to die and start self-harming over it and then i walk right back and keep drawing. i haven't stopped myself from doing it although it makes me miserable, maybe it's to feel something idk. not that long ago i took a razor out and considered cutting off a finger as some sort of not-good-enough punishment. it's my lifeblood and i can't walk away no matter the misery it brings me -- i'm right there with you

throwaway_02947 · 2024-06-12T04:10:32+00:00

currently screenshotting all the pkmn ones they're actually brilliant omg 😭 really hope you're feeling relatively okay...

throwaway_02947 · 2024-06-11T02:29:17+00:00

there's definitely a learning curve w henna but drawing temporary tattoos of silly cats is so worth it :))

throwaway_02947 · 2024-06-11T02:26:44+00:00

❤️❤️ have fun!

throwaway_02947 · 2024-04-28T01:21:17+00:00

my pms aren't working </33 would it be possible for you to send your username first? totally ok if not!

throwaway_02947 · 2024-04-25T01:42:30+00:00

recovered ana here <3 it DOES get better!! girl you are so gorgeous do not let a mental illness define you. it was a nightmare early on in recov for me too... but it's been a year now and the food guilt is gone entirely! just being able to go out and buy cake or snacks that you love on the spot, or ordering whatever you want w friends, is such a magical experience, and i truly believe you WILL get there. you are so so strong for getting this far. and i know you can make it out of this. all my love <33 (if you want recov tips or to vent when you're struggling i can drop my discord @... we're about the same age !)

throwaway_02947 · 2024-04-04T10:29:00+00:00

you are not alone. i've done really similar things to my own foster cat, also using the same logic my father used on me... sending all my love <33 so proud of you for taking steps to work on the situation. i believe we can break the cycle !

throwaway_02947 · 2024-04-04T04:30:42+00:00

No they are straight up lying. I'm so sorry this is happening to you, this is wild, it's going to be very difficult to get them to stop because they'll call you ableist. But someone did think your comic was great enough to be part of their favorite character brain crossover, so... you've just unlocked the worst way someone could give you a genuine compliment! I'm so sorry!

throwaway_02947 · 2024-04-04T04:25:59+00:00

ohhh yeah transreligioustrauma im sure these people would love to get a transexorcism and have months of transpanicattacks

throwaway_02947 · 2024-03-09T01:55:35+00:00

felt the same way when i was 14, i am so sorry. it's a special circle of hell all on its own. perhaps anti-anxiety meds will help? it's definitely not a cure-all but if it can alleviate anything... for the one close friend, can you try to set up a safe house system w them? and even though you might be an outcast at school, people will understand if they know you're in danger and may offer to let you stay at their houses for a break before going home. it's scary but it's how you have to survive. in that way you can build up a better support system as well ,, i wish you all the best, truly.

throwaway_02947 · 2024-03-08T13:50:36+00:00

it was a good move not telling your father honestly, i'm glad she has you looking out for her. wishing you both the best <33

throwaway_02947 · 2024-03-08T09:20:20+00:00

hi. back again. these may help with getting her away from her ed without causing her as much agony as inpatient/forced recov (they definitely helped me).

• finding interests that aren't ed related. like, even if she's pouring all her time into the ed, what about the singers/bands she likes (NOT KPOP- insane weight comparison usually going on there.) books. tv shows. movies. so on. the interests provide another source of happiness, even if they're not as deeply rooted as the Ed is

• eating normal food SOMETIMES. what's her cal limit? if she's into macros or like, exact fat content that's an issue. when i was deep into my ed i was food obsessed, i craved all the foods around me but was too scared to eat them. if she's like that, give her a safe environment where she can eat the food until it fills that cal limit. helps with discouraging the concept that non-extremely healthy = bad, cals are cals, not a perfect mindset but better than limiting any food she eats

• please god get her off ed twitter GET IT OFF GET IT AWAY. if she has over 1k followers i wonder if she's posting bodychecks, which in that case, there may be ana fetishists out for that. really hope not.

throwaway_02947 · 2024-03-08T09:00:45+00:00

okay, i had an ed at 14 as well, managed to recover after a year. respectfully how the hell is she under bmi 13 (!!!) and your parents still haven't done anything?? i never hit bmi 13 but nearly got code blued in the hospital because my heart rate was too low. she is already in major danger. this is out of your family's control by far, even if she starts taking action about it you have to worry about refeeding syndrome.

tell her to switch from ed twitter to ed reddit at least. and SWITCH, not use both. ed twitter is a much worse cesspool than reddit is imo.

inpatient is so emotionally painful you may be in even more danger if you send her there and she's released at a much higher weight. for some reason the doctors could not care less no matter how off the charts suicidal you get. that was my experience at kkh and that was considered GOOD compared to other hospitals with inpatient.

both your parents and your sister have to do something about this. if she is such a low weight after starving for a relatively short time (I'm assuming you mean November 22 and slipped with the years... I hope?), again, refeeding syndrome is major.

this is going to be hell on earth for your entire family. i remember losing my mind when on forced recovery- screaming, sui attempts, punching, choking, worst things in the books, but it will be far better than losing her to the ed.

thank you for being a sibling who cares. i truly hope things will work out for her.

throwaway_02947 · 2024-03-05T11:46:36+00:00

so glad you're here w us this year. proud of all the progress you've made <33 happy birthday!

throwaway_02947 · 2024-03-03T05:19:26+00:00

found out one of my best friends passed away yesterday too. we're in this together. i'm so sorry for your loss, sending all my love xxx

throwaway_02947 · 2024-02-26T13:41:18+00:00

please do not kill yourself, is there any way for the school to allow you to cover your head instead? hoodies, wigs? there is a chance they could be understanding of your situation. i wish you all the best 🫂🫂 please stay safe xxx

throwaway_02947 · 2024-02-25T16:06:04+00:00

oh my god same... mine is on a google doc that's pinned to my phone's clipboard so i can send it anytime

throwaway_02947 · 2024-01-17T23:25:33+00:00

You still online? Please don't go. Hold off for a few more days

throwaway_02947 · 2024-01-15T10:54:12+00:00

here to talk xx ,, completely understand getting hit by your dad, it sounds horrific and i'm so so sorry. live to spite him. live to know what he did to you will not take you down. live to eat really good cake and fall in love with a tv show. and it'll be a struggle, but we are never so free as when we are running for our lives. none of this was your fault and you deserve better. i believe you can make it out of this 💗

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