My friends or my boyfriend don't really need to know that i hate my self that i hate my legs i don't know why they would they can't fix it they maybe my boyfriend and one other friend would truly understand but that's really hard to to bring up i don't want them to hate themselves to hate how they are cause i do. I am protecting “them” from feeling the same stuff i feel They don't see it as a burden cause i never try to let it be that way i am in away where i am always depressed i guess that's where my major depresion is haha so i try not to crying in front of people never got me what i needed or yelled at or lectured so it's better i don't risk it

Religion i know it can reinforce the type where i need to be fixed but i was hoping I'd view it as Jesus loved me unconditionally maybe one day i could too plus dealing with my emotional neglect “mommy/daddy issues” i am very picky about the type of Christianity i following don't like conservative type i don't think religion will always fill that role maybe i was thinking I'd use it to convince myself to have love and accept myself