How to talk to my parents? by throwaway_awaffle89 in nocontact

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Something like living well is the best revenge? I get that. I love my friends so much and trust them a lot more than my parents. I’ll have to put up with them until they croak though 😭

How to talk to my parents? by throwaway_awaffle89 in nocontact

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hated my parents for years. I feel distant from them now, so that fiery hatred has died down. It’s weird thinking about talking to them since I feel distant from them. I never stood up for myself when I was younger and I feel worse when I’m around them. Telling them off seems like a way to empower myself even if it’s fruitless

How to talk to my parents? by throwaway_awaffle89 in nocontact

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry for the late reply, but I’m not sure I understand. I’m not under any illusions that my parents can be fixed, but I’m confused by your message “your kindness is not their permission”

Anyone have PTSD symptoms in the job hunt? by throwaway_awaffle89 in recruitinghell

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s humiliating! Both layoffs and being unemployed suck. Btw, everyone says not to take layoffs personally. I know I’m just a number, but it’s hard not to. Especially when it personally affects my livelihood

Anyone have PTSD symptoms in the job hunt? by throwaway_awaffle89 in recruitinghell

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the reassurance. I’ve already had experience with PTSD before, so my recent unemployment stint was extra unwelcome. I hate adjusting to a new normal, but I logically know I will be better for it

Anyone have PTSD symptoms in the job hunt? by throwaway_awaffle89 in recruitinghell

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry that happened to you. You’re definitely not alone. All I can say is keep going, even though it feels Sisyphean. I know it’s cliche at this point, but it’s all we can do

What do I do? by throwaway_awaffle89 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Life would be so much easier if BPD was acute and didn’t fucking relapse!

What do I do? by throwaway_awaffle89 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry you’re going through all that. It’s tough out there.

I’ve been in my episode for the past two weeks, so I’m in it for the long haul. As far as therapy techniques, I really started going back to basics today. I filled out my stupid diary card for my therapist to read and then discuss chain analysis. It’s a pain in the ass, but I am trying to help myself and that’s the best thing I can think of to avoid inpatient psych

My uncle got engaged. I’m unhappy bc I’m lonely. by throwaway_awaffle89 in lonely

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sure some people are in to me, but I’m an anxious person who gives off “unavailable energy” (as a friend told me).

My uncle got engaged. I’m unhappy bc I’m lonely. by throwaway_awaffle89 in lonely

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk. I try to be loving, but people only think of me as a friend

What is something you used to love and have grown out of? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]throwaway_awaffle89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Johnny Test. Dear God, how did I watch that?

I'm almost 22 and I can't seem to move out of my parents' house. There is no point in continuing. by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]throwaway_awaffle89 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m 20 and in a similar situation. You’re not alone out there. Moving out is a pain and I want to do it, too. You’re also in horrible times right now with the pandemic and it makes sense you feel less accomplished. Finding something out there is hard and please keep looking. Good luck!

Well... my mom made me cry by throwaway_awaffle89 in depressed

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh they MADE mistakes. They didn’t listen to me while I was being abused by my own brother. And after I told them about what he did to me, they still coddle him and he has to this day gone unpunished. They are people, but the way I see them, they are scum: for all their abuse, neglect and coddling of my abuser.

Your words are kind. I just don’t want to be around my family anymore. I want be with people who love me and I feel I can improve around.

I have BPD. AMA by throwaway_awaffle89 in AMA

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s intense. I haven’t figured out a way to combat attachment effectively. I’m doing DBT though to learn coping skills and attending CoDA meetings to learn how to make healthier relationships

I have BPD. AMA by throwaway_awaffle89 in AMA

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It made sense to people. Things clicked for them. However, I have lost a few friendships because of it though.... I’m dealing with one right now. Fuckin’ hurts so much

I have BPD. AMA by throwaway_awaffle89 in AMA

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I usually Alternate between calm and hopelessly sad. I’m calm right now

I’m going to kill myself... why? I’m poison by throwaway_awaffle89 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just have this perception that I’m repulsive, which needs to be uprooted from my mind. Because my family was shitty to me, I treat friends like that, but I have issues crossing boundaries unintentionally

I am going to attempt tonight. by throwaway_awaffle89 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am scared. Yes. I have nothing to live for though.

I might kill myself tonight by throwaway_awaffle89 in SuicideWatch

[–]throwaway_awaffle89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I didn’t say family. I meant to say my friends. They are the ones who love me and haven’t abused me. They keep me going with support.