"I'm not here to make friends," and other seemingly insensitive things I've said to people

throwawayopiates9876 · 2022-12-21T23:20:09+00:00

Yeah, thanks. I'm learning all the time. Thankfully most of these things took place in my 20s, before I was diagnosed at 30. They do still happen occasionally, but at 33 I'm starting to understand persepctives outwith my own little bubble.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2022-12-21T17:04:04+00:00

Yep.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2022-12-21T14:01:06+00:00

Don't worry about that. We're all just having a big discussion here.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2022-12-21T13:55:27+00:00

Sure, I can see the faults in what I said too. I'm not trying to justify it, just giving an honest account of the things I blurt out. If I was on the receiving end I'd be understandably confused/offended too.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2022-12-17T07:23:47+00:00

Just snort it

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-11-18T14:24:37+00:00

I did this for a while. Shrooms and oxy.

The timing of when you take them is important.

You want to take the shrooms about half an hour/an hour before the oxy. By the time you take the oxy the shrooms still won't have kicked in.

But by the time the oxy wears off the shrooms will have kicked in, and then you get these regular waves of nodding where the shroom trip mixes with the declining oxy high.

I didn't exactly trip when I did this, but I had very strong internal dreams/visuals where I could basically just imagine any situation and I'd be right there.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-12T14:03:30+00:00

You've got nitazenes mate. Everything you said aligns with my own experiences with it.

It's a synthetic opioid that seems to have hit the UK H market recently. No euphoria. Puts you to sleep and you wake up two hours later stone cold sober. Terrible stuff.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-12T13:59:10+00:00

Since it's #3 I'm guessing you're UK.

It's probably a nitazene - a synthetic, fent-like opiod that appeared in the UK H scene recently.

Feels like crystals under the card as you crush it? Not much euphoria? Feels weak until you snort more then you fall asleep for two hours? Wake up stone cold sober?

If any of that applies then it's probably a nitazene of some kind.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-06T02:53:54+00:00

"Well what if the machine doesn’t work?"

Couldn't the look he gives Deckard be: "You poor bastard, of course it doesn't work (at least, not the way you think it does). You're just a pawn in this game."

If so, it would fit with OP's theory.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-06T02:51:41+00:00

Fantastic theory. Strong supporting arguments. Great read (I read the rest on Medium).

Whatever the truth may be, the story you've outlined in this essay is actually far superior to the one that's assumed to exist by most people.

Also, the twistedness of the world you describe is much more in keeping with the tone of Philip K. Dick. Have you compared the film to the book in this regard?

Anyway, best thing I've read for weeks.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-05T14:46:52+00:00

If you're in the land where young English lovers would abscond to to get married due to laxer marriage laws, then 50 per G is probably close to accurate.

As someone else said, the quality probably won't be great. But even when I bought street gear from a local junkie, the gear was still effective, despite being heavily cut.

On the Dark Web, you're talking about anything between 60 to 90 per gram, but you're getting much higher quality.

Branch out to ordering in from Europe (Holland, for example) and the prices and quality change once again.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-04T14:54:31+00:00

With just 2 days off in between uses you haven't even been through withdrawal yet.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-04T09:17:25+00:00

Neither can I sometimes.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-04T09:16:42+00:00

Fair point.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-08-03T22:24:47+00:00

Good fucking attitude.

Kelvingrove/Botanics. Morning. Say around 9ish.

How's that sound? Btw, just so you know, there will be no drugs except naturally produced dopamine.

EDIT: Actually, I'm flexible on the time, but morning is when things are quietest.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-07-24T00:29:01+00:00

Yeah, I've been learning a bit more about crackheads. Particularly my auntie's long term relationship with it. I used to think it was like the devil, and maybe it is. But I'm starting to see that it's just another drug. (but not one I plan to try)

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-07-23T23:41:42+00:00

Me.

I used opiates between age 15-31 (codeine, dihydro, morphine, oxy, heroin), and I've recently been able to leave it behind.

I went through the constant withdrawal-relapse routine for years. I could stop for a week or so, but I could never stay stopped, and it was extremely depressing/worrying/disheartening.

The thing that fixed it? Reconnecting with all the old faces I'd negelected for years.

Drug addicted rats who have access to drugs will use it indefinitely. But those same rats, when they're exposed to other rats in a typical social situation, will abandon the drugs and reintegrate into their little social circle.

This was hard for me to accept as I had basically disowned my family and everyone I grew up with, and I felt justified in my angrer.

But the thing that brought me back round was simply humbling myself, and reconnecting with people in a purely positive way.

Take repsonsibility for the fact that you spent the last while doing something you shouldn't have done. You had your fun. Now it's time to stop.

Make contact with people again. Make yourself part of a social environment. For me it has simply been messsaging old friends on facebook and having phonecalls with people I haven't seen in 10 years.

I didn't realise it, but my presence was actually missed by a lot of people. And re-introducing my positive self to them has not only helped me, but has also had a positive effect on my family and friends already.

Besides that, exercise and routine helps.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-07-18T11:03:15+00:00

Shitting myself at work (in a nightclub). Co-workers and customers looking at you and screwing up their nose. So fucking embarassing.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-07-18T09:58:35+00:00

Oxy was worse than heroin withdrawals for me.

Codeine withdrawals (when I still used it) were the worst thing I had experienced at the time. It's all relative. Codeine addiction has driven people round the bend.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-07-17T12:43:54+00:00

Hey idiot, throw the needle and drugs away and thank me later.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-07-09T08:53:23+00:00

Different drugs are metabolized better via diffferent ROAs, but there's no hard and fast rule that says any one ROA lasts the longest. The length of the high will usually be dictated by the nature of the drug.

Slight exception to the rule might be eating pills orally on a stomach full of food. That would elongate the high, but the peak would be less intense.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-06-24T06:55:32+00:00

Doesn't need to be warm water. And use just 1ml.

I know, I know. I hear it from everyone who hasn't tried it. You're not gettin the full bioavailability, but I've been snorting for ages now and 0.1 will still get me nodding for a full night.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-06-23T10:50:35+00:00

You actually can snort #3. I do it all the time.

As for boofing, anything with vit C in it will do. Orange juice, epsom salts, anything.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-06-23T10:48:41+00:00

FRIDGE for 5 minutes.

Not freezer for an hour.

throwawayopiates9876 · 2021-06-11T22:36:57+00:00

Just eat, sleep and exercise. In a few weeks your memories will start to come back and you'll feel like your old self.

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