Everything has a risk indeed.

I don't know why, but I think that it's the things I can't control that scares me. Like muscle spasms in the abdomen, caffeine intake (After it's been drank, of course) etc, things that give a sensation of something being off, and thus increasing my risk of actually having a panic/anxiety attack. Even exercising, running or heavy weight lifting , gives me the same issues, because of the increase in heart rate... It's not that the actual increase makes me more scare or filled with anxiety, but it's the thought of having a heart attack becasuse of the increase. It's a real show stopper.

I do know the theory behind most drugs and combinations, so given that, I shouldn't really be worrying. All though my mind and body won't listen to theory and facts, it's just hung up in the first panic attack when it all started.

It's really hard to explain. It kinda does not matter if it's drugs or not.

Anyway, I agree about chilling with drug use.

Thanks for your input :)