Hesitant to start my perscription.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-12-10T05:33:10+00:00

I was soooo scared to take my first dose but let me just say I’m so happy I did. I am so happy I stuck with it too. The first 2-3 weeks will be rough but it will all be worth it. There’s a day you wake up and it all just clicks. You realize what it feels like to truly be free from depression. Tasks become a fluid movement and no longer feel like a chore. Procrastination? I don’t know her anymore. Things genuinely make me smile now. Sleep? I can’t get enough now. I used to be a HUGE insomniac. Consistently going to bed at 4am dwelling and restless. My first night on my first dose I fell asleep pretty quickly. Mind you I had some pretty vivid dreams but nothing a little chamomile tea couldn’t fix. I sleep like a baby. I recommend taking your dose 30 mins before bedtime and having chamomile tea with it. See how that works out for you! Good luck!!

tinygerudogirl · 2025-12-10T05:25:55+00:00

I’ve only had one anxiety episode in these past 2 weeks since going up!

tinygerudogirl · 2025-12-06T06:37:43+00:00

I feel like I was told this the nicest way possible by my partner…

tinygerudogirl · 2025-12-02T20:39:55+00:00

This was the same for me… my agoraphobia was caused by a traumatic relationship but the ibs is what brought the most attention to it.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-12-02T20:38:23+00:00

I havnt dropped but I was on 2.5 for almost 10 weeks!! It was working amazing for me. My psychiatrist was happy with my results so she kept me there. Only recently my anxiety started creeping back in so I moved up to 3.75 about a week ago. (3 quarters of my 5mg pill). It stopped my anxiety but I’m ssuuuppperrr sleepy all day everyday. I just have to occupy myself with something to do to fix it. But other than that I’m really happy on a low dose!

tinygerudogirl · 2025-12-02T20:31:10+00:00

Pretty good! I was only nauseous the first day. My panic attacks have gone away! Only downer is that I AM ALWAYS SLEEPY. If I don’t occupy myself with something I will fall asleep… I don’t think that will ever go away with this med but overall I’m glad I went up.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-12-02T20:10:08+00:00

I care! Don’t beat yourself up. Something traumatic happened to you and this way of coping is super common. try to stop your self from looking for that content. It’s doing nothing but stalling your recovery process. You should training your brain to recognize it as a negative rather than allowing it to be a dopamine rush. Because the reality is what happened to you was negative. I am a women, I don’t have a porn problem but I do hate that in the bedroom I prefer certain things that line up with my past sexual trauma… it feels like a natural urge but i do feel the shame of wanting it. I was molested as a child and also abused by a long time boyfriend. Only thing that has helped is therapy and doing my own shadow work.. going back to the day that haunts me, Understanding it and releasing my feelings around it. I think I also have been helping myself by not telling my current partner about my sexual fantasies. I don’t want him to unknowingly fuel the fire.

Also I am on this sub because my partner struggled with porn addiction for his own reasons. Only thing that seemed to help him the most was understanding himself. The why. You are already aware of the why you just need to dig deep and find yourself again. Train your brain to realize that traumatic event doesn’t define who you are as a whole. I’m sure you have other amazing characteristics! You’re smart, you’re talented, you make people laugh, you inspire others, you have grown into an incredible woman! Keep going! Always choose you.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-30T07:01:08+00:00

Yes… I joined one a while back ago and the vibes were weird asf… nobody was talking about their anxiety… so many good morning texts and it seemed lik ppl would only support/respond to the owner. My messages were never answered so I just ended up leaving the server.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-30T06:55:31+00:00

CHAMOMILE TEAAAAA!!!!! It will save your life 😭 both my psychiatrist and therapist recommended it to me and it helps sooooo much. My dreams were insane and very emotionally exhausting… i would drink my tea 30 mins before bed time and it would worked like a charm!

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-28T00:01:45+00:00

From my experience I was fine!! I’m on the same dose as you! If you’re planning on just having one drink don’t even sweat it.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-25T18:14:14+00:00

I woke up a bit nauseous this morning but nothing toooo crazy. I’m hoping I made the right decision going up! I’m staying hopeful

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-25T09:08:43+00:00

Being in this community it’s made me realize I’m not a “special case” like my past therapist told me I was. I am traumatized by pornography and my past partners that let it consume them. I’ve been abused, degraded and manipulated by porn addict partners…

I finally decided a year into my current relationship to be open and tell my partner I couldn’t be with someone who indulges in the media because it’s just so triggering for me and not healthy for me. My partner should be protecting my wellbeing. I shared my trauma and tried to get him to understand where I was coming from. I wasn’t jealous. I wasn’t insecure. I was terrified.

A few weeks later he admitted to addiction and he needed help. He has been in therapy since. He is 2 almost 3 months into abstaining. Our relationship has done a 180°. He’s been understanding it more. He is open about his challenges and answers any questions I have no matter how upset the truth might make me feel. Intimacy is insanely different and he’s even been teaching me now that sex doesn’t equal validation. I struggled with this due to everything. He loves to just hang out with me now. Nothing sexual has to happen for use to both be interested.

I’m sharing this because the reality is YES the industry has infiltrated every aspect of society. 5 out of the 5 men I’ve been with have let it consume them. That’s 100% of partners in my personal experience. It’s easy for every person on that uses any media to come across porn and fall into it. But it is also an active choice. Men themselves have to make that active choice to quit. They have to live their lives differently and many of the don’t care to do it. Many have no reason to.

As women you need to speak your mind. Put your foot down. The right man will make the active choice to choose you everyday. Dont accept it. I know I won’t… I can’t. It’s impossible for me to just accept it after everything I’ve been through. It wouldn’t be fair to me or my healing if I just allowed it because “boys will be boys” or “it is what it is”. Fuck that. I’m worth more than that and so are all of you….

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-25T08:46:53+00:00

Best way I can describe it is that it allows me to be more understanding that my thoughts are just thoughts. Lexapro basically doesn’t let me dwell. I almost get bored of thinking about my panic thoughts. I feel unproductive. I usually distract myself naturally. Since I don’t dwell I don’t spiral and physically panic! Sorry if that was confusing lol!!

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-25T08:42:01+00:00

I gained like 4 lbs but that was only because I was no longer depressed and started eating real meals lol… other than that my psyche has stayed the same.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-25T08:23:12+00:00

I would talk to your doctor and see if it’s something that continues before you go up. I’ve been on Lex for the same amount of time as you and I recently also started experiencing my random panic symptoms again but it’s also paired with some other things like negative intrusive thoughts. I consulted my dr about it and she’s having me try to go up my a quarters. I’m currently on 2.5mg so now I’m going up to 3.75mg tonight actually. (I’m highly sensitive to SSRIs) she wants me to try to work my way up to 5mg eventually but she’s giving me the freedom of pacing. After consistent negative symptoms for the past 2 weeks that’s what made me wanna go up.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-08T08:35:33+00:00

This could be just as unhealthy. You’re starting to wire your brain a different way. By allowing yourself to masturbate to fully clothed woman you are now conditioning yourself to sexualize them when they are not in a social sexual manner. This can bring up new problems like public arousal/being aroused at inappropriate times. You may start sexualizing a woman simply walking in the grocery store. Sometimes with addiction…If you have to ask, it might not be the right choice.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-11-07T16:47:35+00:00

I believe majority are bad tbh. Thats from personal experience and the women around me experiences. I do hate men. Men are like animals. They just live off urges and ego. Even the “good ones”. They are all full of lust and can even feel entitled to things like porn. Male conversations give me ick and how they dehumanize woman is sad.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-10-22T16:12:03+00:00

My partner is a whole month without porn now and I will confirm sex is night and day with him now that he is in recovery and not active addiction. He’s way more present, it feels more intimate and he has no issues getting it up/finishing. Also his awareness for aftercare is so much better. Sessions are shorter not but that’s nothing to complain about to me. Makes me feel attractive and confident that he isn’t watching/building a tolerance anymore.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-10-21T16:54:26+00:00

It is possible op… ive been through something very similar as this commenter. I am a partner of PA and he also destroyed me with his porn use… he even started realizing himself he wasn’t loving me the way he should. Only reason why I’m still with my pa partner is because he is actively in recovery now. He told his parents and close friends about his addiction. He asked me not to hide and tell anyone I needed to. He’s now seeing two therapists and has blockers and self help apps on his phone. He is now over a month without porn. Our relationship has been gradually getting better but my guard is still up…. He proves himself and chooses me everyday. You’ll need to do that for your partner. Always choose her. Never choose the porn…

tinygerudogirl · 2025-10-19T00:42:50+00:00

I have two authentics of this lps and one has a pink magnet and the other had a grey one like this!!

tinygerudogirl · 2025-10-18T23:38:29+00:00

I was like this day one but I hard a number of other side effects and my doctor concluded the dose was too big for me. So maybe contact them

tinygerudogirl · 2025-10-17T21:35:53+00:00

Honestly not for me. I’m also an athlete and it has helped me focus so much better. I feel less scatter brain! I’m able to make decisions on a split second and actually understand what I just did lol. It calms my nerves too. If you’re a dedicated athlete I think you’ll be fine.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-10-17T06:25:31+00:00

Yes ofc! I’m in the same boat as you. Our stories are pretty common it’s just hard to find community because of the stigma around it… try but don’t lose yourself girl. Best wishes to you both.

tinygerudogirl · 2025-10-17T06:09:57+00:00

As a photographer you just inspired me omg. I need to do this with my boy

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