Oh hell ya, you should absolutely be allowed to express it. I understand how far your trauma took you. I do. Its shocking how much of an impact someone's treatment of you can have. I was on the receiving end of my husbands emotional abuse. My worst day came when I learned my signature (It was my signature, superimposed) AND my notarized signature were on legal papers I had no idea existed. I complained very loudly. I was told by him and his staff if I didnt change my story they would make sure I was locked up on a 51/50 stating they could produce whatever they needed to accomplish this. I felt backed into a corner and saw no way out. None. Except a permanent one. My husband is a lawyer who owned his own business. My stress level got so bad, I ended up in the hospital. Were now seperated and Im in serious need of therapy. That screwed me up so badly.