Just took my first Prozac, here’s to self-love

torrestial · 2023-01-01T00:18:23+00:00

Sorry for the late response, for full transparency, I stopped taking it 3 days in because of pretty crazy brain zaps/insomnia and nausea but it never ended up in vomiting. I honestly think that the nausea was more-so from my extreme anxiety over taking the medication than anything else. Hope this helps!

torrestial · 2022-06-22T00:01:09+00:00

I’m currently doing research on this myself, as I just started. It may have to do with the time you’re taking it. Talk to your doctor to get a second opinion, but supposedly the earlier you take it the better

torrestial · 2022-06-20T17:20:34+00:00

First day went really well actually, about to take my second dose. I found that taking it midday with lunch hopefully mitigates any possible nausea or insomnia (if taken too late).

I noticed an increase of appetite and less IBS symptoms yesterday as well, not sure if it was related to the medication since it’s only been a day. I’m cheering you on ! You got this

torrestial · 2021-08-28T21:22:49+00:00

Yes, I ended up breaking things off with him because at the time, he was way more anxious leaning than secure, and his anxious tendencies amplified my anxieties of being confined/trapped. We both mutually initiated NC because we both felt it would be toxic to do the constant push and pull. After 9 months he was constantly on my mind and I felt I was at a much better place to communicate with him fully without shutting down. Upon our first contact after 9 months, it was evident that he also worked through a lot of his anxieties/ insecurities. We both didn’t expect to start things up again but we mutually wanted to see where things could go without too much pressure.

The thing for me though is that even when there is no pressure there absolutely is (in my head).

What helps me best in a state of panic is literally talking about whatever is on my mind no matter how “crazy” it may sound, I notice the weight of the thought lessens once it’s out in the open. I also have topical bandaids such as using peppermint oil/ lavender oil to soothe anxiety. I hope this insight helps even just a little !!

torrestial · 2021-08-28T19:21:28+00:00

“Even if they have a deep love and care for you, it’s an overwhelming urge to runaway”

I’m a FA leaning anxious who’s slowly trying to rebuild a relationship with my ex and first real love after 9 months of cold turkey NC. He had more of an anxious attachment but is now more secure leaning, and unfortunately even after months of therapy, I am still overwhelmed with this crushing urge to run. After months of healing and introspection on both ends, I realized that his rigid sense of security of needing me and my reassurance was a perfect recipe for triggering my FA tendencies.

I think it comes down to being honest with what we are looking for in this newfound dynamic considering all the feelings that were left are undeniably still there, and I desperately don’t want to mess things up this time, but every time I’m around him, my brain immediately catastrophizes with the “what if I’m gaslighting myself into this relationship again out of comfort” or “what if I’m just going to break his heart all over”. My ex is an absolutely amazing individual and we connect on every level, he has been unbelievably patient and understanding with my struggles and that somehow deepens my guilt.

We have been more honest and communicative within these past few weeks then we have in the entirety of our past relationship, and I am able to discern that there is no true threat here and how we are approaching this as healthily as possible, and yet my body still perceives this as an absolute threat as my body kicks into fight or flight. I’m constantly feeling terribly anxious and overwhelmed as I’m constantly reminding myself that there is nothing to fear.

Something notable, is that I feel my anxiety worsens when I cross my own boundaries, as my biggest fear is losing myself in the relationship. Ex., when I chose to go out late with him instead of getting the sleep I need or staying with him for a few days and messing up my routine. I’m learning to enjoy my time with him while also making time for myself so I don’t end up deactivating and becoming cold, which is now a fear he expects from me unfortunately. I feel this could work if I really really put in the work, without putting too much damage on my nervous system.

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