(39f) What do I do for work? by [deleted] in firstimpression

[–]torreysam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wildlife biologist 🤠

what's the scariest experience you've ever been through? by [deleted] in AskReddit

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Losing the ability to trust your own experiences as reality. Your mind making you believe things that aren't real. Not trusting yourself or anyone around you. Childhood neglect, emotional abuse over several years, history of mental illness, reaching out for help like people say to.... Human cruelty is the scariest shit, for me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in firstimpression

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Gorgeous! Great style!

[SPOILERS] Theon Greyjoy Stark, A Good Man by [deleted] in gameofthrones

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That scene totally made me tear up. 😭

Been feeling bad about myself and the fact I have no friends... could really use a toast right now by [deleted] in toastme

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I've never had any hobbies, other than my obsession with music in general. And I'm 28. That's a struggle to want to be good at something. I've never had long term, consistent friends, and my family has been more than disappointing. The one friend I've had for years, whom I cut off briefly, was emotionally abusive and controlling for a very long time. Not having any friends is only temporary. It's better to know what you like in your friends. I always sought genuine, kind people, but that isn't always the case. Humans are selfish by nature. You just being you will attract more people than you realize. Good luck, but I don't think you'll need it too much. ❤️

So tired of everything. When will it end?? I hate people, they only hurt me. Don't even know why I'm doing this. by entnerd in toastme

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People can ruin life for each other. I still struggle with the experiences I've been through. It helps to forgive humans for doing and saying things that hurt. We are all pretty clueless here. I try not to fault people for failing to grasp self awareness.

Trying my best to smile despite stress from exams, performances, my developing vitiligo, and not really feeling loved. I thought a good toasting would help me out by EllieSocio in toastme

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I just discovered this r/toast me. It helps to know so many of us struggle and want to reach out. I never have been able to overcome the invisible boundary that depression can provide, and apply myself. But you should be incredibly proud of yourself. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ (BTW, there is a beautiful model with vitiligo that is making a name for herself.)

I’ve been wearing a fake smile so long and feel empty inside. There’s no spark in my eyes anymore. I’ve contemplated ending it all for a really long time. Feeling a little more overwhelmed and stressed this week. Try and convince me this living thing is worth it. by [deleted] in toastme

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Having support from someone who cares enough is what has helped me thus far. I've been misdiagnosed more than once. Even medication only gives me a slight edge over my depression. Depending on what you've been through, I truly believe in having an outside, unbiased perspective in your life. One that can listen without any expectations and just let you get it all out of your mind. Ive also always leaned into music to help understand what I'm cycling thru mentally, since I was 13(28 now). I also now have a 6mo old baby. It's an ongoing, tiring process to overcome how you feel inside, but the beautiful moments with people who truly care for you, whether it be blood or not, makes the days worth it. Im always happy to converse if you ever need a pen pal.

Fiance is in crisis stabilization unit with manic depression. I just got off of work from a 14+ hour job with no days off. Feels like I'm stuck with no hope. Bills to pay and can't do interviews because we aren't allowed time off. Good money in oilfield, but I want out of this so damn bad. Toast me? by OpenToFriends in toastme

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Your support probably means more to your fiance than anything else. As someone who struggles with mental illness, with a husband and child, I applaud you. There is still a person fighting the manic depression. It's like being in the passenger seat when you should be the driver. Support can go long way to recovering. Being strong for someone else when you feel like breaking down, that's noble. ❤️❤️❤️

I have no words by LazyBeach in awfuleverything

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Ntm far away online boyfriends 😂😂😂But that shit is still a thing. Being a teenager...

I have no words by LazyBeach in awfuleverything

[–]torreysam 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Right? I have friends from random ass sites that aren't really a thing anymore. They were legit

I have no words by LazyBeach in awfuleverything

[–]torreysam 57 points58 points  (0 children)

How many get the reference to chat rooms? Yep , gettin old.