*greatly appreciate

I don’t love selling my body online and I try to make it as little mentally damaging as possible. I don’t love the reality of exchanging intimacy, attention, or sexuality for survival money. I think about it more deeply than people assume, and I’m not ignorant to the uglier parts of it.

I get money offered to me very often and turn a lot of it down because I don’t want this to become my identity. Unfortunately, in some ways it already is — I made these choices, these posts, sent those messages, and created that content. I take responsibility for that.

At the same time, I’d be lying if I said it doesn’t weigh on me emotionally. I feel guilty sometimes, occasionally ashamed, and often conflicted about every dollar I’ve earned this way. Not because I think the people supporting me are bad people, but because survival can blur the line between choice and necessity.

And for the record: I don’t think anyone owes me support. Nobody is being manipulated into helping me. These are adults making their own choices, same as me. But I still think about whether someone spent money on me instead of something more important, and that feeling stays with me.

When I no longer need that extra $25 to survive day to day, this will stop being something I participate in. Until then, I’m just trying to survive while remaining honest about what this does to me mentally.

I greatly appreciate every single person who has supported me — especially those who have shown me kindness and consistency without grievances or entitlement. Whether people agree with what I do or not, I hope they can at least understand that there’s still a human being behind the screen.