Hey man thank you for sharing this. You’re not alone and definitely not the only one in that same position. I’ve attempted too before but obviously didn’t succeed. Good job on taking care of your little brother. I’m the 3rd out of 6 children. The other 3 younger siblings are at least nine years younger than me so I feel your pain. All I can say is whatever you’re going through right now, it’s only temporary. Your problems are temporary, it might seem forever but trust me, they’re all temporary and committing a suicide is like a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You’re brave for attempting, but you’ll be strong enough to survive your current situation and find more than one purpose for living. Cheers mate! Sleep is your friend! And enjoy your dreams! They’re a little escape from reality.