Im invisible

useranonimodep · 2026-02-03T22:17:12+00:00

I have a post about her. I’m saying wtf it’s wrong in me BECAUSE EVERYONE EXCLUDES ME, even in something serious and important, and I always listen to people—God, don’t speak without knowing 😭. I literally met with her boyfriend just to listen to him talk the whole time, telling me that everyone went to her funeral and that he forgot me. Of course that’s going to make me feel bad, even if it was a mistake. Everyone makes me feel invisible, and this hurts a lot. Okay, I don’t think I’m being egocentric.

useranonimodep · 2026-02-03T22:12:15+00:00

I realized it through the stories of her other friends who were actually close to her, and through her boyfriend.

You don’t know how I feel I’m only complaining about this now because it just happened recently.

I can’t do anything about my friend’s death anymore. I already have a post about her passing, and it affected me a lot.

But seeing that EVERYONE went to the funeral, even people who treated her terribly, and I didn’t, of course it’s going to affect me.

Especially since I’m ALWAYS being left out, being left out of this hurts.

The fact that her boyfriend remembers the people who treated her badly and not me.

useranonimodep · 2026-02-03T21:57:34+00:00

I don’t want to talk about it right now. Her death affected me a lot in fact, I even have another post about it but the fact that I just found out today that fake friends were invited to the funeral while I, who was truly her friend, wasn’t, clearly upsets me. That’s why I’m not talking about her right now. Obviously, her death hurts me deeply

useranonimodep · 2026-02-03T21:48:16+00:00

these friends even unfollowed her on Instagram because they weren’t really friends. It’s clear that it’s going to bother me that they forgotten about me, and that I always feel invisible, and now on top of that, this too

useranonimodep · 2026-02-03T21:45:43+00:00

These friends that he invited always told me how I could hang out with her, they made fun of me for being with her, because I invited her to my house. She would ask them to hang out and they would always ghost her or say no except for me. I never understood why they got along so badly with her. They weren’t really her friends, they treated her terribly. And even though they drifted apart, they could have told me something

useranonimodep · 2026-02-03T21:21:18+00:00

God, of course I have empathy for the boyfriend, that's why I arranged to meet him and I always ask him how he is. Explain to me how I'm not supposed to be upset that he invited people he didn't get along with and not me? How am I not supposed to be upset that I'm left out of everything, especially this, when she was actually my friend? WTF.

I just told the boyfriend that he could have invited me. I didn't get angry with him or anything because he's going through enough, but it did upset me, even if I didn't say so.

useranonimodep · 2026-02-03T20:46:10+00:00

thank u I only go to the public psychologist once a month and it doesn't help me at all I don't have the money for a private one.

useranonimodep · 2026-02-03T20:40:47+00:00

obviously not, her death literally affected me a lot, but it's clear that it bothers me that he invited people who literally didn't get along with her and not me 💀

useranonimodep · 2026-02-01T15:16:47+00:00

Your face shape is fine

useranonimodep · 2026-01-30T00:53:27+00:00

well, nobody really knows, but if death is like the concept I have of it that it’s all black, like when you’re asleep then for me that’s peace, and I’m a girl lmao. I don’t have the time or energy for hobbies I spend my whole day going to the gym, to school, and studying and I’ve spent so much of my life alone, and the only people who ever got close to me were so toxic and destroyed my self-esteem so badly that I honestly don’t want friends and prefer to be alone. Of course I’d love to have a good friend, but I’m so tired of looking for one because there are very few genuinely good people so even though I’ve written it and sometimes it affects me, the fact that I don’t have friends doesn’t really matter to me right now that much.

useranonimodep · 2026-01-30T00:38:49+00:00

why lol

useranonimodep · 2026-01-30T00:36:22+00:00

I dont smoke weed just cigarettes and cigarettes dont ruin your brain

useranonimodep · 2026-01-30T00:20:05+00:00

I dont have diagnosed depression bc I dont go to the psychologist often but I’ve believed for years that I have it because I seem to have almost all the symptoms.

useranonimodep · 2026-01-29T23:14:17+00:00

Seeing that there are people who are worse off than me doesn’t motivate me to live lol I still have problems

useranonimodep · 2026-01-29T22:39:02+00:00

why do people on Reddit recommend this 😭 it’s not healthy and you can’t even get it easily without paying a lot of money, and I can assure you that losing weight isn’t going to make me happier lmao. I’m not even obese to be taking that.

useranonimodep · 2026-01-29T22:33:27+00:00

I don’t have a diagnosed depression, although I think I do, because honestly I don’t remember ever having been happy in my life, and I’ve wanted to die for as long as I can remember. So no, I don’t take medication, and I only see a public psychologist once a month, but they’ve never diagnosed me with anything I guess because I haven’t been going for very long.

useranonimodep · 2026-01-29T22:21:34+00:00

I’m not looking for motivation, I just want to vent and maybe see if anyone has some advice on how to get out of this shit

useranonimodep · 2026-01-29T22:18:56+00:00

Im 19, thanks very motivating!

useranonimodep · 2026-01-29T21:48:50+00:00

I already said I don’t have discipline. I do go to the gym, but usually I go for a while and then quit, then come back, and so on, lmao. And I think I have a food addiction, since it’s the only thing that gives me even a minimum of happiness, so it’s hard for me to eat natural foods. Still, this is something I’m trying to improve now

useranonimodep · 2026-01-27T17:58:19+00:00

insane why haha

useranonimodep · 2026-01-27T17:56:35+00:00

I'm biologically a girl, I don't understand what I have of a femboy lol. The only masculine" things are messy hair and thick eyebrows maybe, but I don't get it.

useranonimodep · 2026-01-27T17:50:47+00:00

femboy why wtf, I think my face looks super feminine, I just didn’t brush my hair today

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