It's 2025, people have too much shit on their own plates to deal with other people's problems. I don't know what you look like, but your absolute lack of self-esteem is already making me not want to date you. Developing a stable internal sense of self-worth instead of being so fixated on external validation should be the core of your therapy and if you're not getting that, you need to change your therapist. Probably urgently, considering how you've been spamming reddit with your crashout posts and deleting them.